Here i sit broke and half broken with nothing much positive to say. I am going to attempt to start editing and video taping for money again, hopefully I don't fail as hard as the last time. I have to come up with a name for the company though. I am tired of screwing up with out even trying though in life. I am going to push myself to be in uncomfortable situations, face my desires that coincide with my fears. Welcome to the new life, alone on a raft in what used to be a river that dried up into a creek so I was not able to go as fast as I once could, the has filled again and I have motivation that i had lost. It's good to feel the creative bug in me again, also very scary though. So here I go, making an ass out of myself, with out having a wife telling me to sit down and behave myself or telling me that's a stupid Idea and that will never work. I am just gonna do what I want to do learn from the **** ups and keep moving on trying to improve. I may never make it anywhere, I may drown along the way. What I know is, I am broke with only soup to eat, I have no where to go but up from this **** pool of life I am in. I will try to make myself proud, and hopefully all the people that matter will be proud of me as well.