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Topic: I can't smile
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Wed 06/18/08 09:59 PM
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JTstrang's photo
Wed 06/18/08 09:59 PM

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Is this women worth all of the pain and suffering?


Probably not, but when I say "I love you" I mean it, and although I still care about her, I was just thrown away like a used condom.

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Wed 06/18/08 10:01 PM

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Citizen_Joe's photo
Wed 06/18/08 11:31 PM

I haven't smiled in over a year. I feel good somedays but it gets brought back down thinking of her. I am tired of feeling like this, I want to be happy, but I just can't let myself. Have I gotten too used to not being happy to always being in pain that I can't be happy anymore? I don't know, this is getting tiresome, the pills aren't working, the booze makes it worse, and all I have left is a car I sleep in when i finally get kicked out of the school building. Sorry to rant, but I just had vent, I felt overwhelmed by the thought of her and just get depressed and feel lonley.


Call this number: 641-357-6043
They'll tell you how to staple a smile on your face.

JTstrang's photo
Thu 06/19/08 10:15 AM
not quite ready to quit the booze.
I remeber one time a docotor asked if I had a drinking problem. I said no, it's one the things I am best at.

Citizen_Joe's photo
Thu 06/19/08 12:27 PM

not quite ready to quit the booze.
I remeber one time a docotor asked if I had a drinking problem. I said no, it's one the things I am best at.

When I was in Ireland in 2001 my customer asked me, "Joe, are you an alchoholic?" Later I figured out he wasn't asking, he knew! laugh laugh laugh laugh laugh Later I figured out that which I thought relieved my anxiety actually created it. Drunk and skinny wasn't much fun either, but we all get to decide when we're done, for a time. My last drink was on 6/15/03, and eventually, the self-pity disappeared, and after handling the problem drinking, I got to work on the problem thinking. Marriage #2 would never have happened if I hadn't stopped and learn how to be a real friend, and while there were challenges I could not overcome with her, I have no regrets, even about the move to a small town.

The most obvious and glaring fact is that it's not too much love that will kill you, it's too much sympathy that will, and like my Irish customer, your doctor probably wasn't asking. He probably saw liver damage, or some obvious and colorful clue. Personally, I enjoy the stories about life before and after about alcohol abuse. I see them as the best reminder in the world of why I shouldn't drink. As for the label alchohlic, I see it as a diagnosis, nothing more, nothing less. The stigma or shame only comes from being drunk when you know you are one.

chuck366's photo
Thu 06/19/08 12:28 PM

I haven't smiled in over a year. I feel good somedays but it gets brought back down thinking of her. I am tired of feeling like this, I want to be happy, but I just can't let myself. Have I gotten too used to not being happy to always being in pain that I can't be happy anymore? I don't know, this is getting tiresome, the pills aren't working, the booze makes it worse, and all I have left is a car I sleep in when i finally get kicked out of the school building. Sorry to rant, but I just had vent, I felt overwhelmed by the thought of her and just get depressed and feel lonley.


turn that frown upside down

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