Didnt mean to hurt myself
but thought this for the best
released all my demons
and put myself to rest.

Guess it wasnt meant to be
to belong and find another,
wanted so to be married
so to a happier life I could be carried.

But my life had been planned
and this was my fate,
never to find another
to belong,and to mate.

So I comitt myself to die
so soon I will be gone,
I say goodbye to my friends
must right what Ive done wrong.

My punishment will be
to suffer in the depths of hell,
to daily stoke the furnaces
the devil will ring his bell.

So this is the way
this story will end,
to another parellel universe
I now must go to spend
the rest of time
or as long as time remains
will fly to new dimensions
from peacefulness I will obstain.

um don't kill yourself, k... there's always hope as long as you're alive.

Thanks for your sweet and beautiful words,but I have only lonliness here,am growing too old to start anew,besides this is the way God has planned my life to be,full of utter lonliness and despair.
What I wouldnt give for a nice,long,firm hug,and kiss! Not meant to be.
You are a beautiful woman and your thoughts are much appreciated!

In that case, I'd like to share one of mine.


Love Again

Sometimes it's too late to go back
When we find something we miss
But for everything we somehow lost
We must remind ourselves of this
That memories fade for a reason
And lovers will come and go
Some friends are there for a season
But with the wind your pain will flow
As long as you live your life
The best way you know how
Keep yourself open to pain
Live in the here and now
One day when you least expect it
You'll find you can love again

ATU 2007

yes please dont harm yourself ...trust me you have no idea whom you'll hurt with your demise ...i know i've been down that road over and over again yet it turns around trust me you have to think positive i know its hard but it helps ... and i love both the poems very nice

You could be a friend as I do need someone to really open up to,would you be willing to be that friend?
I know nothing can happen between us,but would you be willing to help me cope if you could?

To whom is that question directed? I'm not sure how I could help you cope, I take it one day at a time just like everyone else around here. There are plenty of people to be silly with and have heartfelt discussions with around these parts, try joining in with the conversations, it helps me feel better all the time