This is a deeply painful and difficult issue. The subject invokes many issues we struggle with as humans beings. The deep emotion I feel, compels me to take the time to respond albeit your post was months ago. The issues of lost intimacy ( into me see), loneliness and loss are difficult and oh so human. Also how to cope with the pain...I will attempt to speak to the pain induced by loss and the subject of loneliness. Most never look at the purpose in loneliness. Loneliness begins at birth and continues our whole life. Grade school, High school,in our families.Also in crowds, maybe even and often in marriage and devorice. What I have learned is that without the feeling of loneliness, We would never spend time being just with the Lord. And so I have excepted that when I'm alone it's my time with The lord for him to speak truth to me. This is a very good thing but does little to diminish the pain of loss. Loss of intimacy, touch, love, and joy. For it is by us humans on the earth that these things are ministered. OUR HANDS. We are a world broken,,touch deprived, lacking love. Give and it will be given...I love you dude. So as I try to fill the hole in your heart, the hope is that it will prime the pump, so that you can give love. This Heals. Jesus ministered love after the painful death of his friend John the baptist-er.
Lastly She is in the arms of the great love giver. You have shared her with the lord to love. Or actually he shared her with you. He has seen fit to leave you here to love on others with the compassion the pain has produced..Albeit I am always in danger of a false balance in the rational explanation (blah) there by lacking to communicate to the emotional. I hope this is not what is being sensed. My love and deep sense of compassion to you in your loss I deeply feel and carry this hurtful burden with you. May the God of all good things bless and heal your broken heart. Love in Christ John