I have tried but I feel bad leaving those people in their **** and piss, or making them wait for care that they don't deserve to wait for. I mean, it's not like an office job. These are people, and a lot need constant attention.

Believe me, I wish I could not do her work. I think I would start to enjoy my job again.

Boxer briefs with a hole in the crotch.

You know, as hard as it may be to believe, at my job I work my ass off. And my job really does involve working your ass off, I've lost 50lbs the last three months. I don't mind my job, I love it actually. I get to interact with people all the time, I get to help them pretty much live their lives. It is very fulfilling. However, there is a girl I work with who does ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.

Okay, there are 3 halls of people, 3 aides. In all there are around 40 people we must put to bed a night, around 15 per hall (give or take). Tonight I wrote down all the people I laid down (this includes brusing their teeth, taking them to the bathroom, getting them dressed for bed, and then finally lifting them into bed)and my list had 28 people on it. It should have only had 15, but I covered her hall as well. And tomorrow will be no better.

I'm on my 5th day in a row and my patience is wearing thin. I tell the charge nurse about it but nothing gets done. I have exhausted all my resources... What should I do? If I continue on to tomorrow and it happens again I feel like I'm going to blow up on her...

I'm so ****ing tired.

oh gosh, ur a gas!!! lol

crackin me up here buddy.

lol yeah and im janis joplin.

Even if my family is full of hippies, I've still always been the black sheep. I have found that there are other black sheep around in my family too. People have lots of secrets.

Funny thing is I thought it was a black guy but it's actually this Jewish looking gangly white guy... I didn't believe it at first.

He sort of reminds me of Matisyahu.

Well... I have dated older men a lot and I figured maybe the reason it hasn't worked out is bc they are not close enough to my age.... Get at me if you live nearby and want to hang out.

I was smoking with my cousin the other day and I heard the song Daylight by Aesop Rock. It's probably the best song ever.... Anyone ever heard of it? You can hear it on my Myspace, it's the first song.

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=85983156

It's stalking if you're checking them out and they don't know about it and aren't okay with it.

Thankyou.... This should be titled THE MIND OF A SLUT.... Of any girl who ever got pinholed as the "slutty girl".

AndyBgood, you are a good person and you have a smart mind and good heart. I have considered pornography before, and honestly may eventually. I think I would genuinely like it...

I will never quit smoking weed. Ever. I have smoked since I was 14 and I will never quit. So enough is enough. I know its bad for your lungs and you can go to jail... Move on lol.

I have this bud I call Vagina Weed, because it smells like God's Vagina... If God has a vagina.

And it's colorful, and I sort of wish real vaginas were as colorful.

I love weed and vaginas!

God I'm stoned.

M.B.

I am writing this letter to you. A letter that you will never read. With a gun and your **** you changed me. I will never be the ****ing same. You made me desperate in so many ways. Desperate for male idealization. I grip onto my sexuality as a weapon. I hurt myself with every man that ever got the best of me, then left. Like you ****ed me and left me. Gun to my head, please just pull the trigger. Put me out of my misery... I was ****ing fifteen. How was I supposed to give you what you thought you needed? Why couldn't you just have killed me? You threatened my life but instead took my childhood. From the moment I met you I was broken. And I held it all inside for so long that you became a part of me. No matter how hard I tear at my skin you are there. You made me ashamed of what I was so I could never be anything else. If only you could see me now. A broken woman in search of redemption... Attaining only disgust at what I have become. Because of you I will never know love. And love is all I ever wanted.

12/2/08

I have allowed my social awkwardness to bleed into my friendships. I am no longer comfortable around anyone. I feel constantly on the edge of society. Like a leper, no one can touch me. I feel like a prostitute that has already been used. It all comes from inside me; everyone treats me the way I should be treated. Partially alive I sit and wallow in my own grief. No one could ever understand the emotions inside me. Fear, regret, complete loneliness. Looked upon as a toy with chipped paint and no batteries. I am so broken they don't even play with me anymore. I'm in the pile of everything else left behind. They all move forward into marriage and relationshihps but I am so stuck here. I cannot communicate through my lips... Only with my body. My message is so unclear that even I cannot understand myself anymore. I was always my biggest critic. I can now allow them to take over. Just take over so I don't have to see what I really am.

I would agree but my myspace says it too so I guess I'll get fired if they don't like it. I am honestly one of the only ones that shows up to work where I work tho... And the rest of them are sober. It's actually me and another girl that smoke pot all the time and we are the favorites around there.

And thanks for the great, nice, open personality Jim519. I may be loose, but I at least sort of expect a guy to pretend to be nice lol.

Oh well, I'm gonna smoke a bowl lol.

you wish honey, don't you wish....

Well, my job knows I smoke weed and I'm actually one of their best workers. I'm not retarded, I wouldn't put it out there if I wasn't confident in myself. If you get busted smoking weed, you are irresponsible. I never go to work high, that is irresponsible. Those people need me in my best mind possible, and it's not when I'm stoned.

And I am a slut, well was a slut. I don't know how to do the relationship thing. Men take me and leave me and that's just how it has always been, since my very first time having sex. Sex is important to me, and I think any woman that says different is just too ashamed to admit it... However, I have treated myself to many hamburgers instead of steaks, so maybe people saying I'm loose isn't so bad. I can take criticism with the best.

I will not get into it about pot with anyone, considering no matter what points I may bring up everyone has their own opinions (as silly and unscientifically supported as they are). Just one question... My grammar may not be perfect, but do I sound like some dumb stoner? Plus, my dad is an abusive alky and I cannot stand alcohol, it tears me up in so many ways.

Love to know how you rate me and my profile. I try not to come off as too loose but whatever. Sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do to get some lol....

No.... You're smokin!

But anyway, sort of off topic, but I'm SO WASTED RIGHT NOW!!!! It's my 19th bday today, WOOOOO!!!

I'm too sexy for my shirt, so sexy it hurts.