...you can be bored even if you are doing something

I apperciate that. AA is not for me. I know Christ is my only hope and through Him I will be healed and forgiven. I am far from perfect but I do try. I guess lately it has been so much harder on me, because I am trying harder to improve myself and get away from drugs (including alcohol).

But, I feel a little better today. Perhaps things won't be so bad after all.

It's kinda funny, everyday I wish and hope that I don't wake up the next morning, and it finally hit me, after all this time, I've managed to keep going even through the tough times, so it is pointless to want to die now. I mean I've conquered some rough times, and I think back now on some times where if I were going to die, would have been a much better time to do so than now.

I think I will feel a little better tomorrow, so that gives me some hope.

It's funny how I've never met you guys, yet you seem to be there for me whenever I need. You guys have helped me tremendously since I've been here. It's truely a blessing. I thank you all for being such loving and caring people.


Thank you all for helping me. I wish I could do the same for you.