Sorry about the mis-spelled words....

I left last night and deactivated. I got an e-mail asking why so here it
is. I've been here since before Christams I've seen people come and go
and through it all I've stayed. I've met alot of people I thought were
my friends. I've never intentionally hurt anyone here. Yet NO ONE dives
a damn about me. Not realy. You know how many people return my emails
here? Probobly three. I used to talk to people here. Once I e-mailed
every person on my friends list just to see who would reply I think 5
did. Out of the almost 90 I had at that time. It hrts and when it comes
down to it I'm not welcome here.

This past winter everyone was interested in me because I was the broken
one. Then they lost intetest as I grew stronger. I deleted most of my
friends and backed off for a while. My friends list then doubled when I
announced my impending "bundle of joy". Sad huh? People who would NEVER
talk to me...the ones who shunned me where ever I went here were
suddenly my "best friends", That hurt but I went with it...whatever
right? But as time has progressed my
posts,e-mails,testimonials-everything ALL begin to go unnoticed because
I guess you all got bored.

Then last night I said something about it in a post and suddenly I'm
asking for pity, F U C K that I don't need pity. Trust me when I look
in the mirror every morning the last thing I think is "Poor me" I
KNOOOOW Sheryl,Purple,Mom,Morena,and a few more ALL have it worse than
me.

I pray for them I realy DO. But as for e-mailing them to check up on
them I stopped for a reason. EVERY SINGLE TIME I'll send them something
asking "How are you doing?" EVERY SINGLE TIME I get "I'm fine" or they
just completely ignore it. THEN next thing I know I find something in
the forums about them. Something that everyone else seems to already
know about. That hurts. So I've stopped. Think whatever you want of me
but I can't TAKE this anymore. My heart can't, my sanity can't.

It's clear that I'll never be respected here.

I'm unwanted so why should I stay?

It was fun while it lasted I guess but that truly isn't the issue
anymore.

Goodbye guys.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((Purple,catch))))))))))))))))))))))

If I knew WHY I'd change it....

As for what's wrong with me??? Nothing? Idk....

It was just an example. No one cares if anything happens to me
anymore...it's probobly my fault but that doesn't change the fact that
it's true.

Ok catch last time you talked to me?

Welcome

I have like NO friends...LOL They all lose interest....

You're not a loser I wouldn't have shot you down...you
know if I was there,single,and not knocked up

Thank you guys...


FYI Hiker I'm not big on cheesy

Yes I am I know I should be but I've been B.itched out for it a
few times...

nusalor you miss the teeth?

Yup I need to...I'm sad Everything seems to be going wrong and
I'm getting fat and no one wants to talk to me...so yes I'm WHINING Get
over it you were WARNED LOL Anyways eanyone else feel like whining?

(((((((((((((((((Morena))))))))))))))))))))))

and

(((((((((((((((((Mom))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Because most of them are awesome...they melt your heart...they're
gentlemen,they have a sexy accent and they know how to treat a lady in
everyway...

They are cream...

Yup...I had to come back I was waiting for him to say the wrong
thing and he did...so here I am.

((((((((((((((((((((((((Denise))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))


I'll miss you...Get Well Soon

(((((((((((((((((((CCP,Catch))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I know :-( Izzie LOL

Thanks CCP ((((((((((((((((((CCP)))))))))))))))))))