Well I don't know. Does it really exist? Is't it just a gamble? Sorry for the negativety, but thats how I feel. I'm busy with divorce procedings after only four years of marriage. He cheated on me 4 times in our 4 years marriage. Everytime I confronted him, and he slapped me around. The last time he strangled me and almost killed me. He says he loves me but all I feel in return is discust and broken. I dont love him anymore, how can I love someone like that. I'm very afraid of him, yes. He tried to kidnap our son of 2yr old. Now I have a protection order against him. Yes, I feel lonely and at times very down the dumps. I got a job and Im now the single parent. I just wish I had someone to talk to that really understands what I feel. But as I said, love... I dont know if I'll ever believe in love again.