so here goes.. hi my name is josh (insert group meeting response)i am 20 years old and i had a plan for my future..i met the one girl of my dreams here in north carolina moved in with my dad so i could be with her....6 months went by and i asked her to marry me...and so my pla was working...i started school toget a career for her...started to plan the wedding...and then it happened...9 months i gave...my whole soul i gave...i gave her my all...yet she left me..all my plans were shatttered three weeks ago...i dont know what i am doing anymore..i dont know what to think....i feel as if i am drowning....but i am high dry..i am in my own personal hell. made up of confusion pain lonliness and hatrd...i can feel the cold and apathy seep into my viens..i dont know what to do anymore...i need a heping hand.....so i live concord...go to school for eltronics engineering..i listen to alot of metal...and i could use some companionship and dating...but i have gotten shy around girls in real life. so thatsme....looking for an alternative clingy..touchy feely kind of girl cause that the kind of guy i am.plus i am a hopeless romantic

yo i am metal head looking for an alternative girl...i.e scene/emo/punk/metal/goth chick any one here one? if not does any one know where alternative girls hang out here in metrolina