Hi there, good evening. Thank you very much for your comforting comments.. I appreciate it very much. I was unlucky in love...but still I'm giving it a shot again. But I'm very cautious now. I learned a lot from my past relationship. I don't know what happened to my last gf whom I met in a lesbian group in facebook. She's gone not because something happened to her. It's because she found someone new who is rich and can support her financially. I saw that she's been adding butche's friend in facebook and I read her comments to some male friend. She even flirted to them. Such a player woman.

~Love Letter~
By: J.P.P

Just a while ago my heart let me know, another reasons why you're in my mind all the time. Memories of our first encounter have become my shadow, Months had passed and still my heart beats for you in rhyme.

Exhibit me an art of love not complaining, Ready to face the posibility...whatever may happen. Ere...I have a last song syndrome and it's your name.

My mind, heart, body and soul become one Darlin'. Admitting the call of love, romancing the world we live in.
Initiating that love is all I have, Every day and night unto my dream.

Baby, I'll keep this love until your love for me is gone. Always bear in your mind that you do not love in your own.
Now and forever I'm just here for you alone.

Blue Moon
By: J. P. P.

She's leaving, her dreams come true.
My heart's aching, but she need to go.
I am going home soon,
And I'm bringing blue moon.

Even the moon up in the sky,
Is shining so bright.
It can do nothing to my eye,
Each day its seems like night.

I shed a tear,
My heart's bleed.
It keeps ringing in my ear,
All the things she said.

I hear the voice inside of me,
Keep telling me let it be.
But it's just so hard to do,
Knowing that my only joy here is YOU.

NOTE: This poetry was written 2 years ago when my ex gf went to Canada to work. She's my first serious relationship. Been living together for 2 years and we became LDR lover for 1.3 years....then I thought my gf now will be my last love. She's just gone without saying a word.

~So It's Goodbye?~
By: J.P.P.

I was on the state of getting to know Sue and Jen,
They seem very nice and sweet women.
They both likes me and thought we got the connection,
But I choose you because you demanded my full attention.
I thought I made the right decision,
Because you showed me your love and affection.

They both wish me luck and happiness,
But said I should have not settle for less than I deserved.
I said you're the one I've been looking for and I'm so blessed,
I will not leave you when you get old instead...
I will take good care of you and bring you home.
To my country with our adopted son.
We'll hold on until we meet each other in person,
And I'm looking forward to our future plan.
I wanna make it slow, but you wish it will happened soon.

I asked if you have Viber or Skype mobile App?
You said No, can't download it in your phone and also no laptop.
I said ok, lets just communicate here in facebook chat.
You said yes, cos it's no need cos you already like my photos shot.
You promise me that you're real, and looks just like your profile pic that I find hot.

You're very jealous and impatient,
But I love you more.
You said you have sickness,
But it doesn't change my heart beat even a bit.
You said you're quitting smoking and was an alcoholic,
I'm a bit shocked but I said it's ok cos now you're sober.
I encouraged you to keep up the good work,
Because I don't drink liqours, do drugs and smoke.
Our indifference, I just shrugged it off.
Because what matters to me is you dig my butch heart,
And show me love so true from the start.

You've been so sweet and caring for more than a month,
You're so into me, lusting my body especially my mouth.
But you slowly changing day by day,
Until you got lazy to message me.
You're sweetness is gone,
You are dry like the Sahara Desert.
You're not telling me if you're already in your home.
So that we can chat and catch up where we left.

You become so cold like North Pole,
You stop nagging and not jealous anymore.
I unfriended dozens of friends in our group for you,
Because you don't trust me and you said they keep on bugging you.

I can't confirmed friend requests on facebook,
I need to consult you first and you'll survey their profile.
I can't fantasized other women even on TV screen,
Because you wanted my full attention literally speaking.

I'm choking up by these realization,
My friends told me you aren't a normal person.
I'm trying to convince myself that you are okay,
I commit myself to you and I don't care what they say.

Then I remember you told me your age is 48,
But I checked your profile it says you're 50.
Then I reviewed your old posts in your Facebook wall,
You're 50 years old four years ago?
But still I never ask you about these,
Because I already in love with you Lady.
Yet age doesn't matter as long as we love each other truely.

I saw you added friends without telling me too.
But I keep quiet cos they're femmes.
Then four days ago you added a butch friend,
I asked who is she, but as usual you just read my messages.
You've been doing this for a week now.
You are only reading my messages and I told myself maybe you're busy.
But I visit your profile you've been online everyday.
The proofs are you keep sharing qoutes and exchange conversation,
With your friends in comment section.
But in facebook chat, you appear offline?
Are you ignoring me now? Does your silence means goodbye?
I ask you last month if you want to break up with me just tell me,
Don't just unfriend me or blocked me without saying goodbye.
You said you'll not do that to me cos it's very cruel moves,
So staying silent is better that put it in words?


PS. Goodbye Pam, take care of yourself. Hope your life will get's better. You find a butch who is rich and stupid to love you. Your a big flirt and a player. I can find someone else better, in God's will.