definately the doublemint gum one

lol thats just the start those are ones that i have posted else where
but not published i have another 15 or so that have been published that
ill add with time.

thats another reason us women give up tryin to find the right one, all
the men before the right one fucked it up. the men my age dont know how
to treat a woman. i know id rather date someone yrs older than me than
date someone my age

im not denying that there out there but i mean they're hard to find, i
kno ive got my man and im happy even tho things are rough right now and
i know hes gonna stick by myside as i am his but i mean, a lot of the
good guys do go unnoticed

knowing you are there
and i am here
knowing i can't touch you
or play with your hair
knowing you are with her
and not me
knowing we are not as one
we are not together
knowing i can not touch you
or caress your face
knowing i love you
but nothing i can do
knowing i must leave
but not wanting to
knowing you
is what i have achieved

all i said was i love you
then you just gave up on me
well just know that im yours
whats meant to be is meant to be
you never know whats gonna happen
you dont know me all that well
you think im someone im not
but i always thought you could tell
when you try to be nice
everything falls apart
but our relationship will never grow
if it never starts
you act like you need me
then you leave me confused
i feel lost and used
alone and abused
you need to realize
that i need you more than anything
if you know i love you
who knows what our love can bring

you promised me forever
you said you would leave me never
and yet i sit here and cry
deciding whether or not to die
you told me so many lies
you can't even look me in the eyes
you said we would always be together
hopefully things will get better
i thought it was true love
you were the only one i thought of
now i sit here all alone
with nobody to take home

back when i was young
i was so happy and carefree
a playful song i sung
before he became a part of me
i struggled thru life
never knowing where to turn
whether i'd be a good wife
and if i would learn
then the day finally came
when i met my soul mate
i knew it wasn't a game
he hadn't come a second late
we shared everything
and our love grew strong
i just kept believing
that we would last long
when he asked me to be his
there's no way i could deny
love is what caused this
and if it wasn't, it was but a lie
fate brought us together
and by his side i shall stay
together forever til our final dying day
the love i have found can never be replace
as crazy as it may sound
truth is what this is based
i write this to my love
the one i stand beside
he's the only one i think of
and i am not ashamed to hide

spent every waking hour
every minute together
we were so in love
never separated from each other
my dreams finally reality
yeah! somebody pinch me
thought we were soul mates
actually believed it was meant to be
fell for his words
believed every line
why was i so stupid
to let him in, i was so blind
in my dreams he'll always be
wanted nothing more than us
guess it'll never happen
nothing but a case of lust
try to think of others
can't get him out my head
now that i'm moving on
i feel a little dead

sitting here with thoughts of him
they're racing through my mind
the lights slowly dim
and i see him standing there
i'm yearning for his embrace
this must be a dream
i want to kiss his face
but he's out of my reach
i dream of him each night
for he posesses my heart
the fire still burns bright
in the hopeless pit of love
i dreamt of our happiness
and the family we would have
but now i sit here futureless
because he's not by my side
he's the love of my life
i'll forget him never
i would've made a nice wife
but thats another story

missing you,
needing you
wanting you,
dont know what to do
think of you a lot,
only one i want
dream of you always,
its your love i flaunt
cant be alone,
need you with me
nobody can deny,
its the way to be
we should be one,
two "i"s becoming "we"
working as a team,
our love is so free
no doubt at all,
no second guessing
i am the one for you,
and you are the one im missing

Two little girls in my life
Who will remain a part of me,
No longer have their presence
This isnt the way it should be.
Wish I could be with them
Pray we will talk again
The sisters I never had
Hope this wont be the end.
Been months since we talked
Havent seen them in a while,
Miss their silly giggles and faces
And the way they always made me smile.
Sit and think of the days
When it was only the three of us,
Giggled and played all day
Hardly ever had to fight or fuss.
Never let them be anything less
Than the sisters that i claim,
I hate not having them around
But only find myself to blame.

Suicide is not an act of selfishness
It is only an escape, the only one I can see
People say that if I take my life
I'm thinking only of myself
But it is my life isn't it?
Why should I live my life in pain, just to spare the pain of others?
What if after carefully thinking?
And remembering? And hurting?
I come up with only one answer. SUICIDE
Then I am considered "selfish"?
What is selfishness anyway?
Caring about me? Thinking about me?
Wasn't I taught to have pride in myself?
My work? My play? Pride is me thinking about me
And caring about me. And liking me
I don't like me. I am no longer the person I used to be. I am different
Pride is just another word for selfishness
I have reached the end. I have nobody to turn to
I am thinking and nothing makes sense
I end up with one thought. SUICIDE
This is the only thought that makes sense
The only one
It is hard to take a life, yet so easy
Life is so fragile yet so strong
It all depends on which way you want to go
I have tried. Unsucessfully
I have also tried to get it out of my mind
I have willed it to leave
But even when I'm happy and those times are far and few
The thought is always there
In the back of my mind. It will never leave
I wish I could turn back time
To the days of my simple, yet happy childhood
I was so carefree. So happy. I had no problems
But I must face facts
I am caught up in this world, a nightmare
Where hundreds of thousands of teenagers, like me,
Kill themselves everyday
Not out of selfishness. Or anger
But simply out of pain. PAIN
Such a little word for a big, complicated emotion
An emotion strong enough to kill
I can understand, will I be a statistic?
Only time will tell
Some advice to you, who have not yet let the thought pass your mind
Don't let it - once it's there, it's there for good
You can try and try but it will refuse to leave

love me
Current mood: content
Category: Writing and Poetry


Love me when I'm happy
Love me when I'm sad
Love me when the days are long
And not seeing you drives me mad

Love me in the morning
When we see morn's first light
And when the sun goes down
I just want you to hold me tight

Love me when I'm weak
Love me when I'm strong
Even when we're not together
All the day long

Love me when I'm young
Love me when I'm old
Love me all year round
Even through winter's cold

I'll love you forever
Through eternity too
I promise you this
If you promise me too

Night and day I think of you
Oh darling if you only knew
There's a special place in my heart
I pray that you hold it close
I hope you cherish it the most

Every beat is meant for you
And it begins to race when I'm with you
What I feel
I know its real
It's not a game or make believe
Please don't be one to decieve

Every moment that passes by
I can't help but have you on my mind
Give me a sign, show me you care
Let me know you'll always be there
For in your hands you hold my heart
The piece of which you'll always be a part

So nervous, so scared, so worried,

Never thought it would come to this.

Didn't think the day would come

When I had to give you one last kiss

You're my world, my everything

Don't know how I'll go on without you

I know it'll be hard for both of us

But I feel its what I have to do

It was love at first sight

And sorrow at last glance

Had out whole future planned out

Down to the wedding dance

It's the worst feeling in the world

To feel so alone and empty

They say loves forever

But this isn't what we dreamt it to be

im sorry to say scoobette but u need a time machine if thats wat u want.
there are no such men around and if they are they're taken, so yea go
back in time and find someone. bring him back to our time have millions
of kids and send ur oldest son my way!

lol my ex-military

age has nothing to do with maturity or experience. ive been through
quite a bit in my lil 18 yrs.

mean ppl= government