Thank you to everyone for the very nice caring comments

I lie in bed at night wondering why,
I wish you knew how much I have cried.

I can not believe I am living through this again,
I thought that you had learned and now I wonder when this pain will ever end?

I know my life must go on, even though I know that i have lost you once more,
Who knows how old I will be before You ever walk through my door

You had so much and threw it away,
All I can do now is hope you will be safe, as each night I pray.......

I liked it too Jen. you sound down today.

Patty

I love this!!!!!

Thank you very much AngelLight for your heartfelt feelings...

Patty

I truly understand all that you have wrote as i too have BiPolar.

i know all of those emotional stages quite well....

How very beautiful and very touching Happy Fathers Day!

Thank you all so much for sharing your feelings about my poetry

I remember when we first met, You made my life so alive,
Your beautiful smile lingering in my mind, I am trying my best not to cry.
You have been gone for almost four years and tears fill my eyes,
From a terminal Illness that was not fair. I recall how hard it was to say goodbye.
I still can not understand why you were taken away from me at the age of fifty one,
I remember how we talked about our future and spoke of the things that we had already done.

I remember when we would lie in bed wrapped in each others arms,
From the moment that we met, you captured my heart with your charm.
You would be so happy today my lady knowing that we could have been legally married in some states like we always had dreamed about,
I know that you watch over me, from somewhere high above the clouds.

To my oldest son who is not only my son, but a father of five,
I wanted to wish him a very Happy Fathers day, today and for the rest of his life.

He turned into a fine young man,
Helping to bring into this world, the most sweetest 5 grandsons, who I love spending time with as often as I can.

My wish for him on Fathers Day is for happiness with his wife and sons,
And I want to thank him for all of the thoughtful things for me he has done.

Your Mom,
Patty

I am happy for you Jen:)

Love the poem:)

Hey Hey Jen, I hope that you have a lot of fun tonight

I am going out partying tomorrow night with several of my femaale friends, from one bar to one club, to another club

This girl needs a break of fun too!!!!

Patty

Thank you

I have these feelings that I do not understand why,
As a loved one hurt me so much with hurtful words, that tears fell from my eyes.

Yes I still worry about this one, and I tell myself why should I care,
As the way that I was talked to and treated, I know deep inside it was not fair.

Maybe its not my Libra nature to hold grudges for so long,
Or is it that I know that this person was in the wrong?

I know that when I love, I love with all of my heart,
I knew that it made me crazy when we were so far apart.

I gave of myself for so many years, in ways that others never did,
Yet I was treated with so much disrespect, those horrible words I will never forget.

I know that I am by no means perfect, nor is anyone,
Perhaps I had hoped for that love I gave, this person would have remembered all that I had done.
And at least return some of that love, respect, and treat me like I was someone.

There are those you trust, those you love, those you believe,
There are those who love, those who use, and those who deceive.
There are those who want nothing but a good time, a voice who will listen anytime.
There are those who say those words you long to hear, "You are mine".

There are those who will be there through good times and bad,
There are those who will lend a shoulder when you are feeling sad.
There are those who will come around when they have a need,
There are those who will stay as they are the ones who truly care indeed.

Yesterday, the clouds may have been dark at times,
Nice warm temps, wind blowing strongly, yet i felt fine.

Perhaps it means that there are brighter warmer days ahead,
Thoughts of long walks and fun things to do, keep running through my head.

Planning visits to New England for the summer months to come,
Having fun with friends i miss and basking in the sun.
Hopefully moving to my own place soon, further from here,
A move long waited for, to a town that i know i will be much happier there.

Looking forward to making new friends, and spending more time with my grandsons,
Yes, I am dreaming of the summer and hoping to find that special someone..........

When you are in your 20s, 30s, and 40s, one never thinks of different health problems that may all of a sudden appear,
I sit here and sadly think of my Mom who passed away of cancer in 1985, and my eyes fill up with tears.

I can not say that I have not had a good life, yes bad times i have had my share,
I just wonder where my life will lead me from here.

I would love to find love again, and a happy, peaceful life,
But i know in time if things work out, I may just survive...

Very Beautiful write Jen I do hope that you find that special someday

Yes I agree, very good write, i know exactly how you feel, all that you expressed in your poem

Its a shame how others can not see the real you,
Or they would never have fallen, as soon they will feel like a fool.

Your true self will eventually appear,
And the ones you want will not want you near...
I would try to warm them but they must find out on their own,
As you are much different then they have ever known.....