good luck w/ rondoobie btw!


You know, I have suffered from depression for quite awhile. It used to be that everytime something bad happened, I would fall into this shell. I felt that talking to anyone was a waste of time and that is the truth. I am getting the help that I need for mine and there is no problem telling any one that needs help that it is out here. Sometimes, it is just good to talk to someone who can understand as well as relate. I have never thought of suicide, but I am sure that there were those who thought of it and worst of all, carried through with it. I empathize and truly understand. I would offer you my ear if it were necessary. We all really need to help someone when they need it and not push them to the side like I see so much of.

I just wanna curl up in a ball and die. Don't get me wrong, I'm not suicidal. I just don't see the point in breathing any longer. I know I'll come out of this funk eventually, but for right now I just don't know what to do to motivate myself at all. I spent a beautiful weekend in front of the tv flipping channels, I don't even think I really watched anything. Except Arsenic and Old Lace on PBS, gotta love Carey Grant, at least he made me laugh. I just don't have anyone to love or anything to look forward to.