I've been married 3 times. 1st time I stayed in a miserable relationship 16 years for my kids sake. 2nd time, well I blew that one due to being an idiot. 3rd time, once again I stayed 15 years for the kids sake. Now I'm by myself and thinking things through, with some background to work with.

I miss/want someone to say "honey I'm home" or "how was your day". I want a leg message from someone who cares about me. I want to pour over all the possible birthday gifts I could buy her, and worry that I didn't get the right thing. I want to imagine someone smiling at me. I want to that breathless feeling. I want a lot of things that I'm never going to have, now that I'm alone. And I am alone.