Technically I have been on the other side! We are talking Heart Rate 0! Eyes shut. Time to call an ambulance. That was thanks to an allergy test gone bad.

There was nothing there! I didn't see anything. I woke up suddenly gushing vomit like a geyser. I didn't meet God or Jesus or Krishna, Buddha, Mohammed. NOTHING! I did not fall asleep. What we have been taught to have blind faith in is a LIE! I could care less WHAT culture you are from. Life after death? Only in fiction.

Make hay while the sun shines!

BELIEVE ME! I BEEN THERE! I didn't see anything. I would have remembered even if it was like a dream.

Loveboatexpress, you need to find (a) lover(s) that know how to touch you, are reasonably in touch with you as a person, and have a life. I have spent years among people who are so self important. Los Angeles is so full of people shallower than a mud puddle. They pretend to know what love is. They think they are living life. I know I am not living life the way I want to either and I have had a lot of what I would call "Bunk Sex" because women think they know what they are doing. Good sex is experimentation (within personal limits, when there are no personal limits we call that person a TRISEXUAL as in they will try ANYTHING once and if they like it? Do it some more). A relationship can not revolve around sex but sex is integral like the wheel bearing to a car. If you miss that part the car won't roll. Likewise most women have no clue what to do on top of a man. And if that is the case what makes ANY lesbian think they can out do any man in bed when he is a competent lover? Frankly some lesbians I know I would not touch with a pole like a lot of women I know. Then again the laws of attraction are screwy! We want what we can't have, men and women alike.

But if there is one thing I have learned in life, Real sexual gratification is elusive like a functional relationship! If you get both you hit the mother load. I think that culturally you are in a society that expects subservient and servile women. That has an effect on how you perceive love. And you are still questioning what and how you feel. You are more than likely Bisexual and need to have it both ways. If you were just out for the experience of sexual gratification I am pretty sure I could show you a world you only dreamed of. But being Draconian I have a hard edge to how I think and feel and a relationship might be very different considering "Sheep don't run with wolves but sometimes dogs do!" I don't like subservient and servile women. I like a woman who will speak her mind but do it with grace. There is a huge difference coming off like a Bittche (Mingles's word police don't like this word, female dog is the alternative) and coming off like someone in command and control and it has everything to do with attitude. Most (AND I WILL STICK BY THIS!) American Lesbians are utter man haters. Some don't have the hate issues and are people just like anyone but others are rabid and want to but the bite on all other women who are either Bi, Heterosexual, or have questions about them selves. They rush them into a lifestyle they are not prepared for and wind up ruining women to the whole idea of a relationship with sexual fulfillment.

In a previous post I complained about how people are not honest at all with themselves or others around them. First be honest with yourself and admit you don't have enough information. What might be a fascination now could turn out later to only be just that. You might even find fulfillment in a three way relationship where it is you and one other woman and man. You could discover that you like it with two men and yourself. We all want what we want.

You feel trapped between personal belief and cultural belief. I would probably be thrilled out of my mind to have a life partnership and a fully committed relationship with two women and myself. Hell I have had my share of fantasies about that one. But I want more than life will grant me. So I will make the best I can of what I got. It might help if you do the same! Walk, don't run through life.

CARPE DIEM!

just believe me after death there is life ,no one shall vanish

so, do you truly believe that death is the end of your existence?

you need to wait but can you stand it?

Do you even have any clue what you really want in life?

Pleaseeeeee be a lesbian ;]