snow across the ground
like the drifting of my mind

where am I?

confusion following me
while the outside moves so quickly

I go slow
breathless from the beauty of this

thanks I love poetry and creative journaling.
I found this a few days back and today found this forum. a perfect union

(I wrote when I was falling in love with my then- soon to be husband- who eventually cheated. but it can apply to him leaving for good too)

I put the key in the door one last time
climbed those stairs and heard my echo within the hall
I walk to see the #7
the door swings in and instantly things rush back.
I breathe deep for air as if its been taken from me.
Overwhelmed with emotion, visions and his smell
still lingering
The emptiness of the rooms makes my heart ache
my love has left, reality has hit me.
I'll never see this place again
never stand in the doorway to watch him play,
listen
no more whispers in bed
its just silent and still.
empty

My eyes are welled with tears
he has moved on
and my life has changed because of this room #7
It's symbolic.
I'm saddened by this change.
lots of firsts there
Sex, fights, scrabble games...
so much laughing...
and falling in love.
That place was him
and I just got to live it for a bit.

The traces of him linger
the indents on the floor where the couch sat... his drums,
the bed's blue faint mark painted along the wall

Its empty but I still see him there
I see us still being...
and the scent of what I remember so vividly lingers.

Yet I know I cannot stay
I had to look back
and it only hurts more now.

Cause I really wasn't ready for him to leave...
and now I feel it.

I want to wake each morning
knowing I can live
freely
without doubt

to have repetition
instead of uncertainty

plans
future
knowing it will work
cause two people agree that loving eachother
means the other is more important than oneself

tired of wondering
being scared and trying to hide under feelings
always not knowing
if something will happen tomorrow
damaging
what became of them

a twisted tornado

I just want to wake up
knowing