Thank you again.

I'm glad things worked out for you. Hard sometimes to know if you're making the right choices or not. And thank you for posting.

thank you.

the ride


movements fluid
balance measured
the bull bucks heavy

thighs tighten
adrenaline rushes
the bull bucks heavy

desire strengthens
spirits soar
the bull bucks heavy

body flying
emotions jumble
the bull bucks heavy

the earth comes unyielding
as the bull bucks heavy

The Destroyer Am I


His eyes died that fateful night
Saw right through my wilted fright
Saw right through my empty soul
Saw the dark eating me whole

Disappointment crossed his angry face
His wrath I finally can’t misplace
Tortured by my wrong decisions
A lonely existence in his derision

Why do I feel the need to destruct?
How could I let myself obstruct?

His own happiness and dreams
They lay at the periphery seams
And I swoop in with all my schemes
To destroy the smiles as they gleam

Why do I feel the need to destruct?
How could I let myself obstruct?

My mother, my friend, my beacon


my ship sailed free
drifting far and wide
following the current
going with the tide
selfishly listening only to me

mislaid in the seas
i was wayward bound
looking for my path
hoping it be found
eager to choose which to seize

my beacon shone bright
bringing me home
safely guiding
my wondering soul
through the dead night

she stood tall
and she stood proud
always available
this she had vowed
ready for my inevitable fall

now the light’s waned
the lighthouse stands vacant
i’m lost once more
my cries turn blatant
my cheeks grow stained

my solitude weakens
slowly i mend
my mother
my friend
my beacon

Bad Luck Kitty


I vacuum my carpet every day
Yet my kitty always wants to play
So I chase her with my Kirby bag-less
And catch her tail to hear her hiss.
When the tail gets all tangled and twisted
I hit the reverse and laugh till I’m misted
She runs outside and tries to hide
But all I hear are her fevering cries
Low and behold the Craftsman is coming
Bearing down with its loud humming
Poor kitty got squished under the deck
Chopped up fine and spit out in flecks
Now bad luck kitty comes back to haunt me
Anytime I go on a cleaning spree

let me be


belligerent is the darkness of he
dismissing my brittle heart
stomping every piece of me
tearing my whole world apart
aching is all the pain i see
burden dodged on a broken dart
i just want to be let be
forever since that first moment start

The Oak


Swaying in the wind
I stand alone
Mighty
Fierce
And bold

You cannot find another
As beautiful as I

Twisted curves
Sturdy armor
With a misted grace
I’m sure a charmer

Watching the years come around
With their impact so profound
I’m delighted by the summer breeze
I’m aggravated by the fall of leaves
Yet my roots bind me to the ground
At this home that I’ve found
And even though I’m sadden by the blizzard’s grace
I perk right up with the spring’s retrace

Fruitful pride
Powerful meaning
With a soft air
I can be deceiving

You cannot find another
As beautiful as I

Swaying in the wind
I stand true
Faithful
Committed
And in tune

words of circles


words of circles
he doth speak
around and around
as he peeks
my curiosity
he doth catch
with his coyness
i can only match
never outwit
he doth appear
in my dreams
thoughts do sear
toy with me
he doth portray
and there within
my tumult lay

Stockade


Waiting with eager anticipation
I listen for his footfalls
Closer they come with my trepidation
Drawn by my impatient calls

Blinded by my secluded need
I strive for my release
Only to be reigned instead of freed
Making me beg with a fervent please

Gagged for my costly whim
It's my desires that he stole
Binding pulling at every limb
I struggle to find some control

Heightened awareness and sensations soar
I quiver at a single thought
Fear and faith intertwine once more
As I completely give in to being caught

Reflection


Smoke and illusions make up me
Barriers and walls do erect
I guard myself in every deed
Because I know I’m not perfect
Waiting for the day I’m freed
From these unwanted emotions

Thine broken heart weeps its red moan
Across the winded grounds
Drudged through the foul muck of time
Since no longer you come around

Neglected again in the thundering rain
Drown by sorrow and woe
I pray for thee’s unbroken notice
Before my torment becomes my worst foe

Frequently before thou’s mind engaged
Into thine’s subtle soul of love
But demise has descended my agonized thoughts
Since you flew away on a blue winged dove

Dejected and sad with clear remorse
I mourn the loss of faith
Ticking the long endless moments away
Until thine end comes to meet its eternal fate

Is it true?


Is it true?
That I’ve been found?
No longer lost –
When you’re around?

Is it true?
That love is near?
No longer hiding –
No longer feared?

Is it true?
My soul’s complete?
No longer empty –
Once we meet?

Is it true?
I’ve met my match?
No longer searching –
That you’re my catch?

I feel found –

I feel loved –

I feel complete –

I feel matched -

Is it true?

Idle Hands


Twitchy hands sit idle
Burning need to corrupt
Devilishly wanting to unbridle
Normality deconstructs
A walk through the park
A journey
To find the next spark
Watch life flicker
On the offended clash of dark
Warriors howl in defeat
Minded by gross power
Nothing shall complete
Its original intention
Not even the lowly flower
Stomped out with insidious vigor
To ruin the murky glades
Circling around to finish
A ray burns dim
While luster waned in mood
And overcast progresses in
Twitchy hands sit idle
With burning need to corrupt
Devilishly wanting to unbridle
No need to construct

The ending
Wounded hearts
Broken souls
Shattered egos
Troubled woes
For all the wrong decisions I’ve made
This is how my life unfolds
As all my good intentions fade
This is the direction my path shows

Misunderstandings
Delayed resentment
Shrouded anger
Harmful detachment
For everything I tried to rein
This becomes my only achievement
As I try to help maintain
This becomes my sad development

The lie


Dangerous a game he play
When he approached me blindly
Never did I know I'd feel this way
While he treated me kindly

Secrets held close to my heart
Never said or put to sound
Wishing now that from the start
The truth was told before it's found

Illusions swim in front of him
I struggle each night to stay
Guilt, remorse...all sets in
Bountifully adding to my quandary

Connection felt instantly
Unexplainable yearning toward
Yet all built off the latest lie
And for that I feel I'll be scorned

Lost


I am unbidden
Wrecked to my core
I wander aimlessly
Misplaced once more

Searching for my beacon
A light to grab a hold
But the fog comes rolling in
And instills the bitter cold

A glimmer in the horizon
Is what I wish to see
Something to hope for
Something to set me free

Mercury


Behold the fading breath
Of heatless stars
Drown by a blizzard’s grace

Shatter the golden glow
Of the horizon
And bring desolation to this place

Lose the soul of Mercury
From its cosmic band

Extinguish the glimmer
Of the blazing sun
And hear the moon’s soft cry

Rearrange the order
Of the Milky Way
And show misery to those who pry

Lose the soul of Mercury
From its cosmic band

My Friend Misery


Walking fate’s fine line
Destined a life of darkness
Loathed in self pity and doubt
Wondering how I became so heartless
A cruel ironic world I live
Seeping its sad cynical humor
Continually under a rain cloud
Clad in my weighted sinister armor
Rusting away in my shrouded shell

Walking fate’s fine line
In solitude I silently shout
Mimed with frantic desperate measures
Looking for more of my hate to spout
A cruel ironic world I live
Seeping its sad cynical humor
Lost in a wayward tomb
Becoming evil’s best consumer
This is where I’m destined to dwell