Ok! So I guess I will put all of my dirty landry out there for the world to see, but if this information helps just one person, then I will feel much better. Ok here goes nothing. I am 37 yrs old a single mom, living home with my parents. I lost my house to a fire three years ago and had to move in with them. Now at that time I was divorced and dating a really wonderful guy. We made tons of plans to get married have kids etc... but then one day something happened and boom he was sick of crap and couldn't deal with things and was like thats it I am done with you, our relationship is over. Now my point behind all of this, is now I have to start all over and I have only been with 2 men my whole life. My ex-husband and now my ex bf. I suffer with anxiety pretty bad and take medicine to help control it, but unfortunately it crushed my lobido. Now I have to start all over again and I am scared to death. WHat if the person can't understand? what if there expectations are too high and I cannot meet them? How do I handle this? I am scared and I feel really alone. Now I know I haven't been on here long, but I am reaching out. I am a good person, with a few problems right now. Maybe some of you have been through what I am going through and could help me. I could use a few friends and I figured this would be the best way to learn some new things and get peoples opinions.

That is so great to hear, I wish you both the best. I am sure you both are very nice people and only deserve the best. Have fun and again congratulations.

I am looking to meet new people and possibly make new friendships. I wanna live life again and I hope there are some locals out there that I can get to know better.

Thank you all for the kind words. I want to apologize to every one if you think I am selfish or stuck up, because I am not. I am just sick of being judged, by my looks, my smarts etc... I am no miss america, but I know I have alot to offer. I guess maybe I was looking for someone who was too much like my ex, and I agree with many of you that sometimes you have to look deeper and say that its ok to like or be liked by someone different. Thank you all again for your comments they have helped tremendously.

Can someone please tell me, if I am that bad looking that the only guys that ever email me or want to talk to me, are really old, really heavy, and really not my type. Don't people read your profile? Can anyway tell me what I am doing wrong here?