sorry :/ i accidentally posted this a bunch of times...i didn't think it went through

my babys 22mos & her doner has seen her mayb 5times in over 4mos. he lives 2miles away(across a field from us) &only works 4days a wk, he tells every1 he's a good dad &gets pissed if i say otherwise! i found out he was havin an affair with some1 old enough 2b his mom & its been 8mos since i gave him the boot. I AM ELATED 2b rid of him (but he's not enabling me 2fully move on) >:|. hes nvr been ANY help; since i was preggo. i could count on 1hand every time he ever bathed, fed, changed, dressed her etc. in the whole 1st yr+ we lived together! nvr once did any1 help me during the night. I couldn't tell u 1time in nearly 2yrs iv slept a whole night or slept in, or spent more than 2hrs without her. i hav NO family or friends here, no breaks 4 me! its getting much harder on me lately as she closes in on terribly 2 :( best advice on here was; seek breaks from family & just rest yourself, stay calm & patient. iv messed up by raising my voice@her(cause im SO burnt out n frustrated) & now she's acting out where she nv

ya we all have it crappy. my daughter is 22mos & her doner has seen her mayb 5times in over 4mos & he lives 2miles away(across a field from us) &only works 4days a wk! i found out he was havin an affair with someone old enough 2b his mom :P & its been 8mos since i gave him the boot. I AM ELATED 2b rid of him (but he's not enabling me 2fully move on) >:|. hes nvr been ANY help; since i was pregnant. i could count on 1hand every time he ever bathed, fed, changed, dressed her etc. in the whole first yr+ we lived together! nvr once did anyone help me during the night. I couldn't tell u one time in nearly 2yrs iv slept a whole night or slept in, or spent more than 2hrs without her. i have no family or friends here, no breaks 4 me! its getting much harder on me lately as she closes in on terribly 2...:( best advice on here was; seek breaks from family & just rest yourself, stay calm & patient. iv messed up by raising my voice@her(cause im SO burnt out n frustrated) & now she's acting out where she nvr used2, & it will start 2take more n more aggression 2 get her 2listen & i DON'T want that :/. anyway, IT GETS MUCH BETTER, then u hit 2, then it GETS better from there =D ya, b rid of him, its negativity around ur kid and in the end ur better off. im SUCH a better mom now that im not stressed or fighting, hurt, upset, constantly concerned with him n his BS...such a relief!! =>

lol everyone is too nice on here...(granted, i cant read ALL text since the black half the pg loads funny on my phone :/) but...um, i hope that was like halloween or something, and if it was, u should surely specify. otherwise u can seem weird, nerdy/scifi obsessed rather than fun, just showing something other than typical 'pretty boy' shots. eh? :) theres a fine line between kinky lol and wtf is wrong with this person :D

...newly, abruptly single for the first time in 8 years :( also a new first time mom. relieved, but dreading the struggle :<

'fragile... damaged goods... handle with care'