if you read my other post "best Friend dying" well today has been a very
unusal day. well today i was on msn n i had name as PM..its all my fault
that you died" n couple times it kept sayin Not your fault,not your
fault,not your fault..not your fault.i loved u n not your
fault..again.then it said i loved you.-Love jen.thats the person that
died n i dunno what to beleive if it was just my imange beleive it was
her wat my suppose to do.it makes me beleive now that she anit really
gone n still around..am i crazy or was that her spirt..

Can someone tell me why it hurts soo much when u lose a friend that was
always there for you.never judged u loved u for you n only you and that
you could have been with her.well this friend is a girl that i really
loved so much she never yelled at me or faught with me over bull****
like my other girlfriends did and i could always tell her anything that
was bothering me.But i blame myself for this because she was driving her
friends home from drinkin n this guy asked her to his place n she said
No because she wanted to be with me,so wat does this guy do he gets
pissed off n hits her in the back of the head with a crowbar n she
dies..all becuse she wanted to be with me.I havnt slept a wink ever
since she died n i always it should have been me not her. I just dunno
how to let go of her dying like this..

what should let go..or stop blaming myself n move on?

thanks will..