Whats next is all up to you if you hold onto negative feeling and people or situations then life will not be were you need to be mentally. The best way to look at it is life goes on with you or without you. letting you brain linger in the past your body will continue to age and by the time your old with dementia and forget what the past did its going to be to late so if someone hurts you wrongs you or something happens to affect your life learn quick to keep your mind of it find new hobbies meet new friends if its a boyfriend/girlfriend dont jump into a new one take time to repair yourself and relflect on what you have learned from the last one. well that is my advice for today

I can not say i know how you feel i can say that i have felt the pain of the heart hitting so far rock bottom it feels as if it hit all your other organs 500 mph while being ripped out forgetting them it will happen eventually i wish i could tell you it will happen fast and in some cases it does it all depends on the circumstances before and after. I know the fact that he said he was not in love with you is killer but to also feel used as a pawn for his own benefit, my advise is just keep your head up look for a new job talk to friends and family just bc he ruined his life with you does not mean yours is your life continues and its up to you to trust yourself to not let this person do this to you again once your back on your feet with life comes exsperience sometimes we learn the most from the most ****ed up situations if you ever need to talk i can be here for you just let me know and ill send you my email best of wishes