...lol..thank you

I know i dont love him any more... to be honest i dont think i was in love with him for a long time. I became kind of numb to it all after so long.
I know some day i want to have another relashonship...not for a while but some day.....
i am just afraid i will always be so guarded..and that worrie will always be in the back of my mind.
I seem to be blocking people from the real me.......i am hoping if that right person comes along they will have the patiance to wait me out you know?......im just not sure if thats a fair thing to ask of someone..........

After a 10 year marrige..with a husband who cheated 5 or 6 times....talked down to me...asked daily who else would want me.....
how do you heal from that........is it even possible to trust or really truly love again????

stupidest thing......forgave and took back my husband 4 times........after he cheated.
BUT i am a smarter girl now..........and im not looking back!

well friends are what i am looking for right now.......so i guess thats a good thing.

thanks all :)

i was told by a few friends to try this internet dating stuff....
im still not so sure about it, i am sure there are some great guys on here.but its hard to tell the fakes from the real ones......
i am giving it a go......i guess what do i have to lose right?....
Tara Marie