Maddening, swirling, tumultuous thoughts give my heart no peace
Muscles tensing, heart's wrenching, longing for release
Walled off from emotions, numbed to dreams of bliss
Frantically grasping for a hold, sliding further into the abyss

All color drains from my world, subtle shades of grey permeate
Broken shards cast illusions, hope falsely propagates
A former warrior, battle tested, I frantically disguise my fears
Resolve dissolves, nervousness abounds as my refuge disappears

As autumn's cycle nears an end, the ice begins to advance
Stealthily attacking, patiently awaiting for a perfect chance
A frozen heart, desolate and bare, obscures all that would try to see
The warmth reflected, gives off no heat, illusions mask reality

On hands and knees, mumbling pleas, I search for sanctuary
To glimpse beyond this desolation, to a world of possibility
Eyes closed, perceptions peeked, it hovers beyond my reach
A whispered supplication, alone, these barriers I cannot breach

A gentle touch, delicate and warm, I feel her reach for me
Chasing back the shadows, an angel, cradles my sanity
Relaxing, drifting, smiling, I find comfort in her embrace
My saviour and redeemer, a sassy smile upon her face

I close my eyes and search within, I'll trust my instincts this time
I feel a heart of gold as her passions unfold, a beauty so sublime
Peace radiates from her body, a warmth soaks into my soul
A smile reflects a love so deep, my heart I cannot control

Illusions shimmer and are gone, my world is bright and true
Spring marches forth with determination as my life begins anew
To pass beyond is what I sought, but dreams do not compare
To the reality of this wonderland graced by an angel so fair

Dreams shared, rendezvous dared, we joined together as one
The bonds of my enslavement have been lifted, my battle finally won
No regrets can be found, my reflections bring no remorse
Love that binds, as the tendrils climbed lead me down this course

Peace and comfort fill my soul where once only chaos dared
Now love emanates, peace radiates, because an angel cared

Thank you so much, evryone.
Good thoughts, wishes, prayers, honesty.

So far fatigue, fear of chemo, and some pain are the worst.

All of you are helping more than you can know!

Sincere Thanx,

David {:-/}

Yeah, I've already got 7 scrips and 3 OTCs and that's before 6 drugs to be infused for chemo

I'm more scared of the chemo than the cancer.

D

boozer, too

thanx yall, Claudette, Lisa

(Yes, we know this to be true)

Around Mar-Apr '06 I had a stroke.
It resulted in (For the clinically minded w/ translation)
Dysarthria-slurred/difficult speech
Ataxia-balance & coordination problems
Dysphagia-coughing/swallowing problems

OK-Slowed me down some

Then my doc, based on lab results, wanted a liver ultrasound.
2 CT scans, a liver biopsy & a colonoscopy later, in May '07,
I'm given a diagnosis of adenocarcinoma, Cancer of Unknown
Primary site.
Two more CTs and a PET scan later...
It's a cancerous mass on the liver that's NOT liver cancer. it's in ribs and shoulder blades, too.

w/o treatment 6 mos +/-
W/ treatment 12 mos +/-
It metastasized (moved in) from somewhere else and theydon't know where.

I can accept that he SAID that;
But I WILL NOT accept the sentence.

I fully expect to put his educated ass to shame.

CALLING ALL WARRIORS:
NOCK ARROWS!
DRAW SWORDS!

Please support and help me kick this thing right outta here!!!

Thanks All,

David {:-/}

you guys dunno nothin'...EH?

Ya need "MOOSE DROOL"...EH?


Google it up... EH?


it's a beer!!!

Cars or guys????????

Tell me about it!

First a stroke at 45, now a cancer diagnosis at 46.
LOTS of web research. LOTS of questions for the doc.

They're not being optimistic at all.

Almost wish it hadn't been found; it has an elusive nature.

Peace

I'm w/ new & iron on this one

'lo all!

I did the macarena with a pickle 'cause I'm cool like that!!!

Luvved this one UK

Hang in there Claudette,
I know you're there.

David

If I get hit by a truck, my underwear's NOT gonna be clean
anyway!!!

Beautiful,

Thanks from Mom

wha hoppen?

hi





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would SOMEONE please










inspectme?

Thank u catch me

ARE ANY OF THOSE PEOPLE LISTENING?

TOO COOL !

Y'know? I've actually DONE that, man

tried to fix my pic ( only shows my shoulder to the world )

Got to the edit thing, Little reddish corner thing moves around on pic,
but I can't seem to select/change anything