why is it that...

whenever I try to put a stop to bashing...I'm accused of it?
whenever I tag a poem,even tho I'm not th only tagger,I'm th only one to
get griped at about it?
whenever I try to put a stop to drama...I get called a drama queen?
whenever I talk about my problems like everyone else...
y'all say it is just a pity party?
whenever I must stress a point because you didn't read my words,
you say I'm th one dragging it along???

and yet so many people still come to me,
saying help me please?
fix my lovelife?
stop that person from bashing me?
write ME A POEM?
how do I repair...W/E???

but if I dare to have one tiny problem...or feel depressed...
few come to help me???

what the F*U*C*K???

M, I have suffered depression my whole life. I know what it is to stay
in bed and have no desire to leave the house. I know lonliness,
unhappiness, self-loathing, lack of appreciation....I have been there
and occasionally go there. One thing I have realized is you really have
to count on yourself. Ordinary human beings are not equipped with the
patients or knowledge of how to adequately help someone in such a state.
I decided long ago not to count on others to pick me up or dust me off,
wipe my tears, shower me w/ affection. If it is that bad, medical
intervention may be necessary. If it's not, be your own best friend.
Stop trying so hard to be there for others and start being there for
yourself. Work on you before you work on someone else. You need find
self-approval.

like right now...folks trying to burry my question,without even an
answer or comment...???

w.t.f.???

Maybe you are pushing people away, Michael....

heh,,,you snuck in on me Lily...

but I am quite happy with me...
and only wish to help those in need...

but lately been getting S*H*I*T on for my efforts...

Some times it helps to talk to someone in the same boat.May end up being
no more than encouragement but helps.Can feel better about yourself if
you feel like you have helped someone else a little too.Has helped for
me some times.

how do I push?
trying too hard to help?

not everybody has crapped on me but alot of those I've helped in th
recent past have treated me like dirt...

yet come to me wanting to be friends...
or give me cold shoulders...

or instigate it just to get me pissed off...

only wanna know WHY???
who have I hurt?
not killed anybody...
not raped anybody...
not ran over anybody
nor thrown them under a bus...

so....why do I get treated like this???

I mean like your second post on this forum, right below my first. Makes
people reluctant to respond, perhaps.

Consider those who are the source of your trouble to be insignificant.
Don't allow another human being to sap your soul!

just a bit too late...they already have Lily...

my will to keep on going is lost here when I help some,
but others whom I've helped are crapping on me...
why do those people turn on me so fast?

others have even tried to get me banned from here...
some even run to a more articulate person to jump my butt,
if they themselves can't find th words to tell me off...

I came here for me...
friends just happened...
my help is asked for and then given...
without hesitation...
people seek me out,for HELP...

I write my poems and folks think I wrote it for them,
or theirs was for me?

If I write one for a person...it either was asked for,
or I did it out of th goodness of my heart...

just looking for answers,not th dramas resulting...

If it's bashing on the internet that's the problem, simply change
channels. Noone on this site knows anything about the other, so it
shouldn't be personal. Now, when bashing is done in person, that's what
hurts. Christmas Eve, my best friend of 4 years announced that she
didn't want me around anymore bacause I flirt too much with her live-in
boyfriend of eight months. I was floored, shot in the back. I've been
accused of a lot of things but never of flirting too much with anyone!
Mind you, this should be hysterically funny considering our ages, but
it's no. Go Figure. I've decided to become a nun and not fool with
people anymore.

ok...
then let me ask this...
who here has a REAL problem with me???


or something I've done???

lets have honesty here...

Michael, noone has a real problem with anybody here 'cause THIS IS NOT
REALLY REAL! We're dealing with people who can one minute be a lizard
insulting everyone and the next minute (after changing costumes) be a
sexy beauty who loves you with all her heart, and after another costume
change be a jerk who calls you every name in the book.

I HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH YOU MICHAEL YOU ARE GOOD GUY TO TALK TO

Goose...thanx...y'all seem to be a minority tho...

Sushi...I know what you mean...seems that some folks change
personalities faster than they change socks...

say that they LOVE you one day,
then treat you like dirt th next....

again...

WHY???

I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL MICHAEL

Hell I always thought we got along pritty good!

we get along ok Bill,,,
but those who do this know who they are,,,

and it is them that I need to hear from...

some of them have read this post and still won't say...

must be th fear of exposure of giving a double standard...

good for some but not others...???

I feel that we are good friends.

But I do have a problem with things being dragged out. I prefer for YOU
and OTHERS to not bring up old crap that has been laid to rest. It just
feeds the trolls on the site. But you see this is not just with YOU I
have this problem with, its others also.

I do not consider myself a drama queen (I have a daughter for that lol).
So I have a habit of just staying away from the drama.

I have even gone so far as to not posting when I sooooooooooooo want to
say something. But I know that it will just drag it along and get me
caught up in the crap.

Hope you have a good day.
T

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OK!! JUST TEASIN YOU !!!! YA BIG WHINER!!!!

ALL YOU HAD TO DO WAS STFU ON THAT ONE POEM!!!
WELL & STOP TAGGING EVERYBODIES!!

BUTT NNOOOO!!!

IF THERE WAS MODS HERE YOU WOULD OF BEEN BANNED MOST LIKELY.

&&&&&&&& WHY IS THAT???? BECAUSE YOU COULDN'T JUST SHUT UP!

WHY DID YOU FEEL THE NEED TO KEEP CARRING ON & MAKING A BIG DEAL OUT OF
IT????

WHY DO YOU FEEL THE NEED TO TAG EVERYBODIES WORK???

MIKE YOU HAVE BEEN MY FRIEND FROM THE START!
BUT I'LL TELL YA!
YOU HAVE MADE ME SNAP MANY TIMES TOO!!
WHY CUZ YOU DON'T STFU
I CAN UNDERSTAND WHEN MEN SAY SHE MADE ME DO IT!!


YES YOU HAVE HELPED PEOPLE ON HERE !

SORRY!!!!

I HAVEN'T KEPT A LIST OF NAMES FOR YOU!!

maybe, just maybe, if you would quit patting yourself on the back so
much you might feel others.


&&&& if your always lookin for those you've helped to be grateful...

you are helping for all the wrong reasons !!

MIKE, YOU HAVE ALOT OF FRIENDS HERE, BUT IT GOES BACK TO

DON'T PLAY WITH PEOPLE.

for starters, don't tag another frickin poem!!!
how many times do you have to be asked...

secondly that is ssoooo messed up that you would keep on until you've
push a person to not post here any more.

third, this is a drama free zone, so get over it!!

HAVE A GREAT DAY !!!

YES MIKE, I STILL GOT LUV FOR YA, BIGGG JJEERRRKKKKK!!!

OH &&& MIKE!!!

DO ME A FAVOR!!!

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