Today I miss my sons....

My heart aches like no other pain..

The tears streaming down my cheeks...

Like a raging river...

Nothing stops them except...from those who feel the same heart

ache and shed the same tears..

I just want to feel peace...and today I feel none...

I want to see,and touch ,kiss and hold my boys....

But I can't.....

i'm sorry

Tomorrow will be a better day. Good to have so much love inside that you are able to feel those tears because of it. Some people never feel that much love for someone in a lifetime......hang in there girl...

(((zanne)))

I am sorry to here and know what your going thru. My children are in Texas and I live in Wis. and my ex keeps them from calling me so I do know

Awe, Zanne, that's so sad

I've been holding this in all day cause I had to...

But its night and the anxiety and panic is here...

Haven't had a panic attack in quite some time...

I don't know what to do...

ZANNE46

Mine is a marine...

I left my other son in Pa so I could work and the anxiety there was so bad I had to go....

I had their blessing...

I have never felt so weak and alone...

$%%##&!!!! sorry zanne

Thank u everyone for ur support last night...


I am ok...except for this pounding migraine....

That is a whole nother issue...sometimes I don't know when they are coming until they do...

So sometimes before one anxiety comes first and things that bother me become huge....

Even though I miss my sons so..they r fine..Brett has down time for himself on weekends... and Brad...he is skiing in Vermont.....

What a wonderul thing...

So..I ride the storm..I let my feelings out here then i go to bed and watch or at this point listen for the 100th time the movie "Flicka"...It has beautiful music and horses..and it takes me back to back to the comfort zone of my youth...

Today is a better day....and u helped....

Thank u

Zanne

I could rent you a boy or two for a few days... I have to warn you tho.. they will eat you out of house and home.. .. I have 4 of them and I'm willing to share..

But really I hope everything gets better for you...

and I would take them to..just for a few days....lmao

like a grandparent..u get to send them home...

It will get better...seperation anxiety is difficult....me and my boys...we r so close....

I came back to FLA on last SAt...so on Friday I stopped at Brads school to hug him and let him know...that if he needs me back in PA just say the word..he said he was fine..but when I walked away...he kissed me again and another hug and I could seee in his eyes the saddness....

So for him ..his mom moved..his best bro is in the Marines...we all miss each other like crazy...and want what is best for each other..at the same time we hold our pain as much as possible from each other as not to make it worse...

So the eyes tehy are the hearts..and as their mom it hurts to know that they are hurting for me...we r all in a life changing transition of seperation...that we have not gotten used to yet...

But thanks for the offer...

Send them tomorrow..I have a migraine today...