ok I'm not to sure how to word this. so i'm just gonna go with it . i am
sorry if it may get confusing at times.
I'm having a little trouble dealing with a few things. I am currently
unemployed ,i have been since october. not for the lack fo trying
either. i have put out a mad amount resume's and still nothing. I am
housed once again as of today back with ym parents at 23. and this
honostly really bugs me. is it okay to be back home with the folks? in
the past month i have lost the only Best Friend i have. i try so hard to
keep back the tears. everyday seems like its getting harder and harder..
am i really going mad? insane? i find myself thinking things that i
would have never thought before. scary things, remourse. regret.. is
this the wya my life is meant to be. depressed and alone.

mood : helpless
song : callling you

just had to get it off my chest.
think what you want too
but thats how i feel and it just feels nive to share it with someone
that i dont know. so there opinions ccant effect me so bad.

yours truely
twisted soul

I'm truly sorry that you feel so shitty!! I don't have any words for
you, but I'm hoping someone will. Good luck, take care and remember
that this too shall pass.

I can understand the idea of being unemployed myself very well. I
recently lost my full time job with benefits. It being only a few weeks
before xmas the idea of getting a new one is very slim. I was semi
prepared for it though this time. I spent the better part of the past
year or more living inside programming books learning to do something
better. When they fired me I was actually happy they did. Now I can go
on unemployment and make almost as much as I did while working for them.
In the mean time I have been working on building up a business of my
own. I do not want to have to count on someone else to pay me in the
future nore do I want to have to work for people that for the first time
in my life made me feel like I was working for the old time Gastapo. We
were not even alloud to speak to other employees unless it was making
the company money. It was negatively looked upon if we asked another
person where to find an answer for a customers question. The air
conditioner was set at 61 degrees year round and was even on when it was
snowing out and they had the windows open. The best advice I can give
you is to keep trying to work at improving your marketabuility to the
business world while you seek employment. A close friend of mine once
told me "you never have to exlain yourself to anyone" because your
friends don't need it and your enemys won't believe it anyhow.

ok thank you really for the advice. i was aiming more toward a public
personal daily blog. once a day we make it a point to sit down and put
,how our days are going good and bad. sorry for the confusion..