yep! i do too!

I watches PS~I love you last night with Hilary Swank, I cried for 2 hours straight, and not teary eyed cause of the movie, it put me into full blown blubbering! it was an emotional movie, and a great one too, but it shouldnt have done that to me lol

i feel like im losing it completely,, aint cried yet,, aint going to if i can help it.

OMG!! today I'm sitting here enjoying doing notes with Paul & TTO & I'm reading threads & something hits me & I start crying!!
& crying &&& crying!!!
& of course it's about the time TTO leaves work & no matter what I say joking around he can always tell & asks!!!
I then I cry worse & of course I can't lie to him...

so today I just said
Ill be fine!


Then Paul asks. WTF!! just cuz I'm short on words...

So I'm whining by this time cuz the napkins im using for snot rags are falling apart on my keyboard

He tells me I can lay on his shoulder & its ok to get snot on him!!! omg!!!

I was better after that!!

i hold mine in for too long, then i just let it all out at once. guess i dont like to admit that things get to me

awwww he dont mind your snot on his shoulder! how sweet!

ok.. i cant sleep..

Cry Steve you'll feel better...

when you feel like your taking on the world and no ones there to back you up you get really tired of fighting, but you cant give up, even when you know your past the breaking point. ive been past mine for a long time, and still im here,, i cant explain it in words but its strange feeling

and i'm having a breakdown tonight too...

Hiya (((Linz))))





Snot is gross!!
I said maybe drool in my sleep!

im tired of fighting is all im saying

one person can't take on the world alone. you've got friends here to back ya up!

Then I'm feeling guilty cuz I keep being mean to my Dad cuz he bought my daughter a horse..

valeries there for me, but i cant lay my problems on her, shes got enough to deal with, and my sh1t is mine,

((((((((((((((((((((((((Steve))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))



Just don't get snot on me!
I'll throw up!

i dont cry anymore,, i dont think i have any tears left in me

yea you do.
just think of something that is your weakness.

my daughter is my only true weakness,, and i dont have her

sorry, i dunno what your problems are, but i know you are strong and you can do it!

"My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]