Can't break this down in stanza's, etc. Here goes the chat poetry: My past full of sin as God does see
Rebellious from others social debris
I've leveled out with years behind me
Recently finding sister and mom were worst to me

I will over come this and I jump and shout
Hard to loose when God fills one with no doubt
God knows I am a loner who really does not want to be
The cost of so many past friendships, egotistical greed, you see

All was what they wanted and me the poorest as can be
Helping others who never deserved the help, criers you see
Playing helpless when they were just really lazy
Reality type things creates their inner mental crazy

Sure there are those with no conscience, guilt free
It is so contradictory to the way things should be
Self perspective a way to improve, I know for sure
That I really do need to write more when I'm in the mood...