not atheist because I still hold the door open that a supernatural force or forces could exist but maybe not in a way that we think it does, it could be merely observant and not interactive.
We could be the supernatural force or there are formulas a patterns for everyone that determines how our lives tend to go.
For example i was thinking the patterns of the moons (when there were two of the same moon cycles in one month) and the corresponding weeks or months that begin on certain days of the week might suggest a new job of losing one, when i might be able to rebound, maintain my situation. Perhaps turmoil could be on the bound.

Well unfortunately everytime I think i figured it out i haven't.

I like being different from the mainstream, staying low-key, living off grid.

I try to respect people's religious views and I'm not opposed to people still believe in God I think it is a good inspiration for a lot of people however I also am in disdain of progressive protesting groups that are against religion like recently Chick-fil-A caving to the left I believe there needs to be a balance of both religious and secular entities.
But that being said I don't believe either of them should rule our politics.
I think for the same reason both Barry Goldwater and Ayn Rand were against religion infiltrating conservatism.
because one way or another you're going to be worshipping/depending on some entity
On the left the government or mainstream music artists and celebrities; on the other hand you'll be worshiping is supernatural force that is still roughly unknown but you believe is the solution to everything but it doesn't put the power in your hands and you're constantly have a battle between the two for as long as they exist and neither side will ever win.

Why I said agnostic it doesn't just mean religiously it also means in general.
I do things in my own way I don't want to depend on doctors to help make me feel better so I try to incorporate raw fruits and vegetables to my diet even by juicing or steaming green leafy vegetables and taking supplements teas and vitamins it seems to be working so far as I'm not getting as sick as I used to be.
I'm very budget-conscious I try to save my money a good percentage of it even though I barely make a little more than 25 Grand a year I shop at multiple grocery stores trying to find the best price even if I'm only saving pennies. I don't want to depend on the government to take care of me when I retire
I'm very skeptical of advice people give me even if it's in good nature as I find out a lot of times it doesn't work that's because I'm on a different mental mindset as other people so I follow the beat of my own drum.
because I'm such an enigma is hard to find the right kind of people in my life whether they be friends in the social circle or a girlfriend that could be a wife to my children
But here I am.

Strongly identify. Thank you for putting into words what many feel but cannot adequately explain.

Being Atheist, Agnostic, or simply Non-religious doesn't imply any specific sociopolitical opinion. You can be Right, or left leaning Person and that's what makes us diverse since we are naturally free thinkers which allows us to accept the difference without having any stereotype.