walking without courtesy or
any sort of fancy time,
slowly spinning my problems
into a maelstrom of thought based
psychodrama, my feet stopped and i turned.

There was a rather attractive man standing there
(attractive really just an assumption,
i have a predisposition to the female gender)
standing tall and strong and loud.
"Believe in God! Believe in Jesus!"
his eyes were light with the idea that
he really was making a difference.

No; i take that back.
he was making a difference.
his little stone in a sea of onlookers
made a ripple, it did.
i saw a girl there,
her face lit up with anger,
her eyes screaming louder than her words,
her smile betraying the betrayal
he saw in this mans word.

and he met it with a smile.

and so his face kept that content little scowl
vague screams from far off
(DON'T LISTEN TO HIM)
not really a concern of mine.
and his idol? the pope?
no. it was The Book.
whats the difference, really?

and just when i thought
this would be a Christian i respect,
out came the punchline.
"...and for 4.95, you can buy God!"
wow. and i knew this man,
even if for a short time.

Though i guess its hopeless to think
ill ever understand the bastard marriage
between capitalism and Christianity.

snap
back to now
(such a beautiful day)
this man turns to me and says
"now, what would you do?"
what would i do, indeed?

i tell him that i respect him
(do i?)
i wonder why we all gotta wear a cross
or go to hell
(not that i really care;
so many more interesting people are in hell)
i say i don't murder
i give to charity
i help when i really have no need to
i walk with the dying
i talk to the lonely
i sit here and simmer my thoughts in a vat
of Sin Oil.

but its not about that, no,
God isn't about doing good.
its about showing that you believe in him.
thats it? thats all?
well, thats not for me.
ill do a thousand deeds for the ones going to heaven
so i can smile and laugh the whole way to hell.

Do not let one apple spoil the whole bunch...

great observation on a moment in time.

i wont, teddybear.

i have a lot of respect for many a christian. but, like everything else, some people are good examples, and some arent.

thanks, pkd.