why do you grow to love the things you hate (not sure if thats the right word). You go through life sometimesa looking back on things and thinking maby that wasn't so bad. Forinstance I had a relation ship with a girl from a small town. Never been to a small town before didn't like it much but then after. a while of thinking it wasn't that bad... the girl i dated was abusive but inside had a good heart. I still somtimes miss her but think it was for the best. I have moved on but the memories and thoughts I havn't let go from... does anyone have any advice.... thats if anyone can understand what I said lol it might have not made a bit of sense...

what we dont like we generally dont understand. And somtimes we are open to try new things in which we find out generally things arnt as bad as what they seem.

I can understand what your talking about, its called growth

she was abusive not very nice

It read like one long thought stream... but I think I got it.

Give it time. It passes.

I do write some random stuff sometimes lol....

Sometimes we have to be careful of those melancholy memories and thinking it wasn't so bad.. When we're lonely or missing someone we truly loved but had to leave b/c they were abusive, it's not hard to forget the abuse and just remember the good and that is when things don't seem that bad, now from far down the road but up close it was bad and that is why we chose to leave in the first place and that is what you have to remind yourself of...

i guess ur right i was one hell of a ride and adventure ... i learned the definition of a "red neck" lol (pretty fast too lol) i guess thats what I get for moving to the south

Lol i think i answered the wrong part of your question

its cool im suprized somone understood what the heck i was sayin

so what were you saying, if i was wrong that is =)

little towns are like whole other worlds.... in the south full of hicks nuthing to do and beer lol... i found that one out the hard way getting my tires slashed by her not so nice ex the first night i went out with her. I guess im so so good with the good luck thing

nope u were right i think. everything is growth ... just a matter of how you deal with that growth i guess

casue if your not willing to grow then, you become like what alot of older people are becoming and that is more "status Quo" The just leave it be attitude, i cannot be this person you know?

and some little towns i imagine arn't bad its just the ones i went to didnt have nice people lol

yep completely understand... i just need to learn to stop picking the bad ones and pick a good simple girl for once lol

yes smaller town stero-typically are not accepting of other people, the like the way the town is and dont want any one new comming into such. Keeps crime and all this down, what a horrible way to live in my opinion

yeh its a little odd when everyone knows everyone and ur the new guy in town. I mean the only people that respected me were the people who liked my car... the small towns around me they don't give a crap what you do. the only money they make is pulling people over for speeding that are out of towners... happened to me lol

How ya been fivespeed?

Life have you in the wrong place at the right time huh...lol

ITS THEM DAMM SOUTHERN BELLS,,,they do that sh-t to ya,,,,

I was thinking like IndnPrncs. Once traveleled to belize and tho it was fun the were so many mosquitos at night. Years later I tend to remember the fun... but the mosquitos were real also. Sometimes people have a good heart but mental faults make a healthy relationship impossible

yeh im good... they are nice on the outside but inside a rebel lol
back where im from were were simple and boring lol