Something inside me cries
All the while i am growing old
I feel its claws as the pain unfolds
My mind fades back into the Abyss so dark and so cold
Ive died inside my love shriveled and rotted no longer appearing gold
Im black as the bottomless sea now to ****ing old
The cold no longer bothers me yet always remains
Im corforted by this constant wave of you dont have a ****ing clue about my pain or my agony or regrets
I dream about hell wake up and live it
These dreams and haunting visions so sweet and flow to the melody of my beating heart which no longer beats but prays for days where pain is no longer present
Blood no longer pumps to a man who isnt free
But the devils pulse is strong in a tormented spirit who cant breathe
I dont know you and you dont have a clue in what i believe
Ive been through a stormy sea
With no paddle and no dreams
Suffocated to death came back to life and guess what im still me
I dont know if i have a soul
A spirit a heart all i see is a black hole which still bleeds
When i awake i dont wake up
Instead i feel crushed by weight and have no way to scream for help
God is a blessing a curse a fake empty beautiful shell
An illusion my life is on a path going towards anything becoming well
Something inside me rises
A pressure and flame burns higher
With out a polite gesture and no apologizes
Im becoming the demon my mind hides behind as i fall victom to it its power which only symbolizes
My own demise pain transcends me into tongues i cannot even i dentify