Hi Josh ...I am sorry to hear about your loss. That is a tough one.

You have to quit drinking to mask the pain. It doesn't work. I have been there. I am an alcoholic that has not drank since 2000. I am bipolar depressed and I feel like you do every single day of my life. I am 45 years old.

I tried to drink my way to oblivion. It didn't work. You need some counseling, and maybe some medication (temporarily).

But the booze down. Your wife knows the pain you are in, but wouldn't want you to ruin your life because of it. She would want you to have a good life. Get some help and maybe someday, life can be good for you.

I wish you the best of luck!

I really don't want to sound like an ass, but I've been in rough shape since my wife of 12 years left me for another man without any reason or warning. Took my boys and won't let me see or talk to them at all. Her dad told me that he would make sure I never get to see my children again. Her boyfriend taunts me saying he's got my whole family and I have nothing. I attempted suicide, but failed at that too. Ended up in the psych ward in the hospital for a couple of weeks and was released. I have all kinds of meds that are supposed to make it easier to cope and I see a counsellor regularly. I still feel like crap most of the time. I find myself in tears quite often with no warning when I am alone. I'm really good at putting on a face for everyone I see. Sometimes I just go get drunk so I don't have to think how bad my life turned out. I thought I had it made and had a good marriage, and then my world came crashing down hard. I find it extremely difficult to talk to anyone! I grew apart from a lot of my friends while I was married. Sorry, I just had to get it out! I really don't know what else to do. I have a profile on here and you would never guess I feel the way I do by reading it. Damn I feel completely alone in this world. For some unknown reason to me, the days have been getting worse as of late.

Does anyone know what else I can do to get through this? I feel I am losing this battle a bit more every day!

I'm sorry to all of you that has lost someone for one reason or another. I have been there myself. I dont really have any good advice. I'm still there myself. I just know that moving on takes time, and things will get better, we just have to want them to.

I wish everyone luck in moving on, and hope that we all someday do!