yeah they are zach

thanks my dear

No problem hun. Its the best I can do right now in my current state of mind

i love college and i love the college life whats up with everyone !!

that doesn't sound real great

I would like to publicly announce that I own the ugliest pair of sandals on earth...


(that seems more random than it is, I just wore them to the mailbox)

(yes, I wore sandals to the mailbox... with shorts... and it's 29 degrees right now )

see my picture? that was my college experience in a nutshell... lol

(actually, I wasn't very wild, but it was a good time when I wanted it to be)

I generally like college...not the exams >.>

And sandals + shorts + cold weather = CRAZY!!

haha i love my party's i am the master of b-pong !!

the mailbox is pretty close... but that was probably not the smartest thing I've done today

haha

HAHAHAH Zach you crack me up! This is why I am upset though since you asked and I would like a guys point of view.

LONG story but basically the guy I was currently seeing and dating (mind you we werent exclusive or bf/gf) decided to buy a plane ticket for another girl from JSH to come up and visit him because he still wanted to meet her and he was still unsure about us. She is from texas. Well 2 days after she left he gave me the 'no relationship just friends only' speech. He was nowhere near making that decision before she came up. I know that he is afraid of committment thats why I never pushed the issue on him but I blame her some though. She came up at a very bad time. I asked him if they did anything and he said no.

Well yesterday I found out everything. He bought her the ticket while we have been dating, they did have sex, and he lied to me about her staying the whole weekend. Instead of telling me the truth and me just crying, I got upset and pissed off because he lied to me. The one thing I asked him never to do. He said he lied was because he didnt want to hurt my feelings. Well I found out everything from the other girl, so that made things worse. Also, he never mentioned me to her so of course she got pissed off because she felt used. He even had sex w/ me the day after she left and I didnt know this information at the time. So now not only do I feel used but I could have some STD that she could have given him w/o his knowledge.

I feel betrayed and hurt and I dont think I could ever see this guy again. Im having a problem just trying to talk to him and I really dont think he's worth my time now. The girl, on the other hand, really likes him and is gonna try and pursue a relationship with him and have him all to herself. I dont see this working because she is in Texas (we are in MO) and he's afraid of committment thats why he never committed to calling me his girlfriend. I do admit though that he said there was a possibility that we could only be friends and not a couple. I only continued to see him because it didnt seem like that was going to happen actually. He's also previously made the comment that he cant be in a relationship with me or possibly ever with anyone because he wants to avoid all the emotional ties. Basically he's just a young guy who doesnt know what he wants in life yet and who doesnt want to settle down right now so the best thing to do is date around until he finds what he is looking for.

So now Im just very depressed because this is the first guy that has treated me well and was going somewhere promising. We have been seeing each other for 6 weeks but not anymore. I guess what Im mostly upset about is that he lied to me about her and how he hid everything from both of us. I truely believe she didnt know about me and if she did, I dont think she would have accepted the plane ticket. My trust and honesty in guys is gone because of what he did and I know its going to take awhile before I can trust someone again. I also know that Im going to be extremely depressed until I get over him as well.

Sorry its long.

Well as long as you're staying warm now. I like warm a lot better than cold.
But I also think that snow makes everything look so pretty.

just wanted to tell you guys byeee.
i think i'm going to deactivate my profile.

Now why would you want to do that?

i don't like it here.

Im sorry dont go. Stick it out. I am and you know about my bad experience from yesterday

eh -- i thought it'd be different,
but, it's not.

and, it's basically a waste of time.
i mean, i'll keep in touch with you
if you want, but, i probably won't
be getting on much anymore at all.

WHAT?? Why miss??

Thats sad to hear. I hope you dont but if you do decide to, I know I can still talk to you on myspace.

of course we can.


i'm not positive yet,
but, i'm getting to the
point where i just don't
wanna be on here really.

ya knowww.