SUICIDE

Truth be known I sit alone
So no one hears me cry
Lost in pain with nothing gained
Each day just passes by

My family doesn't understand
Not listening to my words
As if I'm just a babbling fool
So much I must endure

I feel a breakdown coming on
Anxiety attack perhaps
Forgetting things I shouldn't have
So many memory laps

Stressed and tense my body's sore
So many headaches now
Sleepless nights and awkward days
What more will my body allow

I try so hard to do what's right
But rarely things work out
Fighting's hard I just give up
I may as well stay down

I see my pills and contemplate
How peaceful I would be
No more worries or heartaches felt
Take them all and stay asleep

In time their pain will dissipate
But questions will remain
Maybe then they'll understand
And listen to my pain

I've been on this threshhold of death and pain,
not ever knowing if I'll ever Love again,
feelings of doubt,feeling left out,
wanting all my worries to just go away,
not knowing nor caring how,they'd say,
how young he was,and sad he was,this day,
what'd stay my hand,was a word from th' Man,
that made this world today,and God's in his hand,
this lonely man,is just a lonely souls hand,
and living from day to day...M.