April 11

I spoke to my mother,
hoping she heard me over the whir that was now her memory
praying for her freedom
and cursing God for the sentence He imposed
the hushed voices all saying it's a matter of time
and a blur, pushing back the sheet,
aiming the needle up until a drop of morphine appeared
the steady hum that allowed her to breath
and debating whether to take my chances and just pull the plug
wondering, if her entrance into paradise would be drawn out
or as easy as free-falling in slow motion from a cliff
and then the humming stopped .....
and I recalled the day we sat laughing,
eating black-berries and ice cream,
and licking the juice from our fingers.

by: Twitch

know this all to well--lost my mom in august

Keep the happy times in your heart Twitch
No one can take that way from you
Thank you for your courage in posting this

Wow Twitch, completely drew me in, very touching

Sorry you lost your mom hun My mom's been gone a long time and it still seems like only yesterday. She's always with you

Hugs Twitch

Thank you all for your kindness. I wasn't expecting it.

well you should expect kindness with this group Twitch
(((((((((((Twitch)))))))))))

Thanks Obscure that means alot

yea...she is with me eveyday

{{Twitch}} & {{Noel}} I know I dread that day more than anything

You are most certainly welcome Twitch I am sure that everyone shares a loss in their life, I know I do
I lost both my grandparents around the same time
It took years for me to stop staring at walls
BUt I just remember all the happy times and the fact that they would want me to keep a smile on my face so it's easier to go on

RockerMom -- I was 27 when I lost my mom; a grown woman with my own life and I still felt like a 5 year old orphan.

Told ya, you are among friends!! ((Twitch))

I think with the holidays coming we are all thinking of those that can't be with us. I myself am remembering a few days of berry picking and ice cream.. Happy thoughts help I think, so think of the happy days.

My dad has been gone for a long time, but wasnt as close to him as I am my mom...That's gotta be the worst..

Thanks all. I know everyone goes through moments of heartbreak losing people we love. Death is a part of life (as Forrest Gump's mom would say).
I had lost my dad 18 months earlier; so my mom was a shock; she wasn't even sick and she was only 52.

was (am) 26--my mom was killed by a drunk driver, almost lost my son as well, he was with her---some of the roughest days ive had to go thru, but there are always the memories....speaking of which its raining outside now, think ill go jump in a few puddles for her...(our thing when i was younger)--proof---the memories will never fade

Life can be so harsh Twitch. Your poem is beautiful and from the heart .. but I do not believe God had sentenced your Mom.

Remember the eternal is far greater than here - in fact a GIFT to go towards ........... From the moment we are born we are set to die - just all at different points in our journey.


I am praying for you and your loss.