Last night I stood out in the rain
wondering why I had been dealt this hand
I look back and wonder did I do something
wrong, or is god just granting me the will to be strong

I want to be weak, I want to lay in the arms of a man
and just let him take me by the hand and lead the way
for just a lil while, let my heart be a peace
I want my mind to just float upon the waves
and wonder if in time, will i really ever find grace

Am I crazy or just mad, doesnt everyone want to be strong
and in control of what they have, is it wrong to want to be weak
or is what I seak out of my reach, never meaning to be
but a life of just living for what I am meant to be

So many thoughts and emotions oh god why did
you give me free will to make the choices that I have
cannot you turn back the hands of time and just let
me start again, grant me the things I wish to keep,
but throw away those that make me weep
grant me those things I wish to have
take away those days of pain that are within my head

I move along with each passing day, thinking is this
really the plan, to just live my life and sit and wonder what
is next, or should I fight against it all, knowing maybe there is
some greater plan, oh how life would be so much easier
if we had a magic ball to pick and choose where each day may fall

One day the pain may subside, my heart at peace as I lay in
the arms of the man of my dreams, but until that day comes
I struggle along, hoping to find the right choice afterall.

That was really, REALLY good. I enjoyed it so much because it reminded me of some challenges I'm going through right now in my life. Wow HUGE kudos to you mah dear.