Good evening, I really don't know how to start, so I will just jump in.
Everyone is searching for that special someone, and I found her. The one
that made me more, that made me want more for us and myself than I could
have imagined. The one that pulled feelings from me stronger than I could
have believed possible. And then illness started taking her away, but she
fought and fought, and we got closer and closer. Until the fight took her
ability to live, her last wishes were for peace for me. I am struggling
to find this peace, I feel empty without her here. I am begging for anyone
to tell me how to accept the fact that I must live my life without my
soulmate, to try to move on and live a "normal" life. I am lost at
this time.

Sorry for you
man.

sorry to hear that.u just learn to live with it.i don't believe it ever stops hurting but I think life grows around the grief and cushions the blow a bit more over the years.i wont go into detail but have been where u are.

I am sorry for your loss.

Reaching out is a good place to start...:-)

"Grief is in two parts. The first is loss. The second is the remaking of life."

Anne Roiphe~

Welcome DarkHawk

Darkhawk - this is exactly how we all feel when our love is gone.

The grief of loss is the same. I have recently turned a corner in my situation and if I were to offer any advice it would be to allow yourself as much time as you need. There is no universal plan no agenda, it will happen slowly - you will come to the realization the you still have a life. This life is not something to shrug off.
We want things to be just and fair - they rarely are.
That hurts, it always will. Allow your friends to help you.
For now all you can do is just be, get through each day. Be patient.

I feel your pain brother.... after my grandmother passed away.. I asked my grandfather.... how are you doing grandfather.... he said the best I can.!..... but he knew what I meant..and
he said to me!.. when you lose people in your life.. you can do one of two things... crumble and fall apart.. which does nobody any good...
.. are pull up your bootstraps and carry on without them..... because after all.. life must go on without them.... and we must to...

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I am so sorry for your loss Darkhawk. And can imagine your pain. The only thing that helped me was gratitude. Try to feel gratitude for each moment you were able to spend with her, gratitude for everything she did for you, gratitude for her being her, gratitude you had opportunity to meet her, simply gratitude for that light. Pain won�t go easily, but sorrow can be replaced with something that will give you strength to go on. Peace be with you, Darkhawk

May 'her' cherished memories help you find 'peace' and 'strength' to 'accept' all those things that 'we' cannot change in life. God be with you. Amen.

it is what it is. life goes on. treasure your memories, take all the time you need to grieve and enjoy all of the good wishes here and elsewhere from your friends. Best wishes

There is so, so very much I would like to say to you....but they are merely words. I too have been in your position and I remember (very vividly) my feelings/thoughts when peeps were telling me to "hang in there" "life goes on" and "it gets better with time", etc. These are ALL good things, but in your state of mind at the moment, those words simply flow thru you without catching hold.
Please, Please be aware that YOU ARE NOT ALONE in this. We ARE out here and FEEL FOR YOU

You will have the dark times, but then something will make you remember something fun/funny about her and you will laugh while still crying, and THAT IS GOOD!!

I wish you MUCH PEACE in your journey

(and yes, time REALLY DOES HELP)