I must say ive had 8 different surgical procedures over the last four yrs an now can only lift 10 pounds .Im not sure how to handle it even though i been dealing with it since the last surgery an the spasms are unreal waiting on disability hearing an going skitso in the mean time ive taken up planting a few flowers an such around the house .its a hard change to deal with after working the same job for 15 yrs in a row an lifting what ever i wanted to most of my life as well as the hikes i used to take that i no longer have the energy to do i walk a bit but not far as i get really tired very fast now as though i worked a 12 hour shift for doing something for as little as 40 minutes not even strenous .scary dont like doctors an at 45 feel as though its to early in life to be this messed up lol. not into large crowds been going on a few drives to deal with it family dont support me as we dont get along an havent for a long time. not sure if i can do it longterm lol everytime i get ready to do something i remember the doc says do not lift over ten pounds from here out the surgerys are done .just an ol country boy going nutty lol. i have worked hard since i was a kid sure feels odd to be dissed because i cant by many who think im fine now .prayers are welcome .feeling down my own personal pitty party i guess lol.

Sorry to hear All you have been through. I think coming to terms with being limited is one of the hardest things we all have to face.
But you will get through this. And pity party is just no fun! But we all need one now and then.
But keep it short. Sending prayers for continued healing. And the strength to get through with positively.

Thoughts and prayers for you.

Blessings & Warm Wishes to you through these difficult times...