Colleen - I am so sorry you are going through this, and at such a young age too for your parents. Congratulations on your sobriety, that is amazing. Have you checked with your hospital to see if they have social workers on staff? Our hospital does and they meet with people and help line up services that may be of help to you. They helped me get my dad into the nursing home and helped me during my brother's death, etc. They also would know of any support groups that may be available for you, or your mother too. They likely have a cancer support group your mother could attend to help her deal with her diagnosis and treatment. And likely for you too, they may offer childcare if you need it to attend the groups, that is why I recommend checking into the social worker aspect. You really need a break and some time. Do you have any brothers or sisters who can help by babysitting the kids so you can get away and get your hair done and a massage, go to the beach, whatever you do to recharge your batteries?? You need to take time for you, going through this stuff is so draining, it would be so good for you to get some time to rest and relax, even for a few hours or a day. You do need help, bring in your family and ask for help. I have been through something similar, and I did it all, my dad is now in a nursing home, but my brothers were of no help, and it drove me into a deep depression and financial ruin, and so I do know what I am talking about. Please get someone to help you so you can get a break for yourself. You deserve it, and get the rest of the family to step up to the plate to help. You are an amazing person for all you have done by yourself, but you deserve help with this and don't be afraid to ask for it. Please check out the social worker angle, they are great people to talk to and a wealth of information. Take care.