BEAR !!!!!

I so love that ^^^ one

For you!

The pain that rages in my heart,
I live with day to day;

A sorrow deep within my soul,
That never goes away.

The smile I use to mask my pain,
Hides tears no one can see;

For the tears I shed alone at night,
Are seen by only me.


I hide behind a thin facade,
A clown on masquerade,

Seeking laughter as my balm,
In a haunting, sad parade.

Behind the makeup of the clown,
Is a shattered heart of glass;

Look deep into the eyes and see,
A pain filled, sorrowed past.


I walk through clouds of sadness,
And drift on seas of pain;

Picking up the shards of heart,
Seeking wholeness once again.

Alive in constant memory,
Across the distant miles;

There is solace for this heart,
And the key to this clown'��s smile.


And though the days are empty,
And years stretch forth in pain;

A hope, a dream is still alive!




Allison Chambers Coxsey [�2001 ~ All Rights Reserved]

so much love in the room lets

'A Piece Of True Love'



At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning-disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question: "When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection . Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do . He cannot understand things as other children do . Where is the natural order of things in my son?"


The audience was stilled by the query .


The father continued . "I believe that when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child . "


Then he told the following story:


Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball . Shay asked, "Do you think they'll let me play?" Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps .


Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much) if Shay could play . The boy looked around for guidance and said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning . I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning . "


Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt . His Father watched with a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart . The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted . In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three . In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field . Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands . In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again . Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat .


At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball .


However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact . The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed . The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay . As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher .


The game would now be over . The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman . Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game .


Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head, out of reach of all team mates . Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base . He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled .


Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!" Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base . By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball . . . the smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to be the hero for his team . He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head . Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home .
All were screaming, "Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay"


Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third! Shay, run to third!"


As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on their feet screaming, "Shay, run home ! Run home!" Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team .


"That day", said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, "the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world".


Shay didn't make it to another summer . He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making his father so happy, and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!





"The grand essentials to happiness in this life are something to do, something to love, and something to hope for. [Joseph Addison]


"We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope."
[Martin Luther King, Jr.]


"All the technology in the world will never replace a positive attitude."


"A life of reaction is a life of slavery, intellectually and spiritually. One must fight for a life of action, not reaction." [Rita Mae Brown]


"It is better to sleep on things beforehand than to lie awake about them afterward." [Baltasar Gracian]

^^^Yum, yum!...

When life was closing in on me,
My world had fallen down;

You always kept me going,
When you would come around.


You pieced me back together,
You made me laugh and smile;

Then when my steps would falter,
You led me that extra mile.


You gave to me a shoulder,
For me to cry upon;

You listened when I had to talk,
When I went on and on.


You never tried to judge me,
Or tear my life apart;

You kept my feet on solid ground,
You listened with your heart.


You told me I could be someone,
You made me feel I could;

Do anything, go anywhere,
If only I just would.


Your love is unconditional,
So I give love back to you;

You are the wind beneath my wings,
Your love has brought me through.


[Allison Chambers Coxsey - �1996 ~ All Rights Reserved]

Always been told I wear my emotions and heart on my sleeve....ANYONE can get to know me and share with me, but the moment you betray i'm out.

....I am going to keep this one to show any new prospects.