MEDICATE

Let go! Give in!
It's a thought, no harm
personalities never change
this isn't one of those movies
'what I'm I thinking?'
okay, maybe not a thought
more of an idea
I'm afraid


he's hard to ignore
he's stronger; persistent & resilient
'relax man! You're the man.'
something brews, not booze
something crude, not good
it's the haste, screws with my faculty
I've been out of it too long
haste flanked me, I'm a thought behind
always a second too late


feels like a sick practical joke
truth is I haven't felt stupid in a long time
my mind collapsed, it's on auto-drive
'time for games man!' it's boast
ravaging my sanity with spite
my shied broke, I'm destitute of strategies
'being possessed by your mind'
a fine definition for insanity



I'm oblivious as ever
a character in my story
the world's revolving so fast
I'm fixed like eyes in pornography
I'm stiff, my concentration deflowered
I fear there's a storm coming
this situation is a blanket to a more sinister one
the thunder before my destruction
my defeat is inevitable
i'm turning into the savage i left behind
a fix is all i need