i'm sorry for your loss.
i understand how you feel. I lost my partner March 12, 2014 to cancer. It was horrible and it still is. I still look for her and yet I know she is not here. All I can say is take it one day at a time. Try to meet new people and make new friends that is why I have joined here.
I have relocated to Cambridge Ontario to now be the caretaker of my mom and i know nobody here. I have a little family here but its not enough. My aunt said to me that i can forget that part of my life....she doesn't know how wrong she is. I will NEVER forget her. I thought we would be together forever and so did she.But the doctors diagnosed her too late. *sighs
If you want to talk, drop me a line. I am a good listener....

I think its the hardest part of going through life losing the ones we love. Being able to share her last moments with you is a beautiful thing. Remember all the cherished memories you had together. Once in a while do something that you enjoyed together. She will always be by your side, you shared love. And just because we leave this body and Earth behind, that doesn't mean she left you, all you need to do is think of her and she is with you always.
My Father died in my Mothers arms on their 30th Anniversary and it was Father's day.
Keep Living and Loving Life, Cherish your connections with the ones you care about.

Sorry for your loss my father died frm cancer as well. You should never forget but the opposite keep living, for her. Love is forever, and so is life...with or without this vessel. Love & Light