i'm not trying to be rude here or anything, but i'm just wondering, does
anyone agree with me, or am i crazy, it's almost 1:30 in the morning and
i'm sitting here and i am thinking, i'm 38, i have a great job, and a
business on the side, i play instruments, bass, guitar, drums, keyboard,
i sing, i have great friends, but not to steal a line from Jerry Mcguire
it just doesn't seem enjoyable without someone to enjoy it with,
sometimes i just want to look up and scream where the hell is she? no
more one night stands, cheap romances, women who just want to screw for
a while and then go on, where is SHE at the one that will stay forever,
oh what the hell maybe it's just a fantasy that never comes true

trust me,,,I feel it ,,,,,M.

Everyone on here has had good stuff. Taino's right, the burying the kids
deal. I have a 4 year old from a previous marriage and if he were to die
before me, I would crumble. My wildest dream is to find the woman thats
been meant for me, own a horse ranch in Colorado, log cabin, all the
goods. Money isnt everything. In fact, I hate it. The root of all evil!
More you make the more you spend!

My parents have buried 2 of us 6 kids. One died as an infant and I was
not around to know her(born much later), yet I know how it impacted my
mother. The second one was my older sister who was partly like another
mother to me when I was real small yet had enough respect for me to
treat me like a brother when I was 9 and up. I was closer to her than
any of my siblings. My dream of a horse farm was a dream of hers as
well. Since I was 19 when she passed away I saw the toll it had on my
father. He hugged and told another sister of mine for the first time she
could ever remember that he loved her. My father never really showed his
love and he never told us he loved us. This is why I have told my kids
time and time again I love them. So yes I pray I never have to bury any
of my children.

I can be happy without a lover. But I would need money to set up a life
style with less worry to be happy. Other have said that things pass
away. Well a home that is paid for can burn down and insurance can build
it back. Worrying is not being happy. Money is a big part of not having
worries. Part of my dream of a farm is to grow my own food so I do not
have to worry and that. I have no desire to be rich. If I had plenty of
money a goal I once thought of was to build or buy some houses and work
with a shelter and help homeless families get back on there feet. Kind
of a no rent housing with job placement(work hands on the farm if
nothing else). That was something I wrote a school paper on with the
notion you just won the lottery what would you do. First was buy my
dream farm and horses and second was help others through the no rent
housing. Part of the problem with goverment housing is it is based on
income. So when you get a job the rent goes up instantly and you get
less help for other things. It is set up to keep you in need. My plan
was to get the people set up with a car, job, and even a rainy day fund
before asking them to move on so someone else in need could be helped.
Maybe this is a topic for another thread.