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.love..xoxo
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Edited by
no1phD
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Fri 09/12/14 02:23 PM
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... I want to be alone!! but I don't want to be lonely.. I want to share myself with you... but I don't want to share my stuff with you.... I want to hold your hand.. but I don't want to feel like I have to...walk hand in hand.. with you.. I want to kiss you !!and I want you to kiss me back.. but I don't want! to feel like I have to kiss you..
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why can't you see me...
why must you always look through me.... . over me around me... . I stand here in front of you... . but yet you do not see me... you see them you see the others.. .... you talk at me but not to me.. ..... you tell me of the others.. . the ones that have hurt you so badly... the ones that have squeezed your heart.. a little too tightly in their . Hands.... 
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.. you thought I would simply drowned... you smiled softly.
spoke so sweetly... . you held my hand! and wade out to the deep end.. with me.. reassuring me that I would be safe... I told you I could not swim... We treaded water for a while.. . time stood still !! well we are in each others arms........ But then!! you kicked away from me... . told me to sink or swim... all because I would not give in... . all I said was . can't we simply be friends.. for now.. . 
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time is slipping away!! faster now ! than it ever did ,before when I was young.... I look in the mirror daily! and see myself fading away.. my hairline is slowly receding... those laugh lines are now turning into wrinkles.. the softness of my skin.. is beginning to feel . more like sandpaper.... I no longer spring out of bed eager to go.... it's more of a steady pulling... a dragging of myself.
.. I can feel the aches in my back! as they remember,where they were the day before... and then return to their assigned places.... my eyesight has gotten so bad... that I can no longer read addresses on house fronts. . from the middle of the road... days yes...I want days back.. I want months.. I want years back....... .. how much time is left... I whisper to myself.. .... 10 years.. maybe 17... 20 if I'm lucky...... where did it go.... I started off with one.... thought I would have so many.... I've wasted so much time.... simply let it go.. as though it had no value..... can I have those !! .days back please..... those days, i thoughtlessly wasted... please.. 
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Hmmm... and I wonder why!! I can never find a date..
 
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.. this is a message for whoever maybe... interfering with my social life... so to speak... I have a good idea who you are... you need to stop what you are doing... and you know what I mean... and in case you don't... stop threatening other women.. and telling them not to speak to me.....
.... I'm giving you one opportunity to come talk to me in private... ..... this matter will stay between you and me..... but you need to .. private message me..... before I need to report you...ok..... again just private message me... I am willing to listen to what you have to say... with a open mind...... but for the meantime you need to stop what you're doing.. .. I do not appreciate it at all....ok... .... ok... back to the normally scheduled program....lol....omg.. |
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well my dear Watson.. I do believe we have a mystery to solve....
. yes Holmes I do believe we do..hmm . .  ..
. well the game is afoot.... let the sleuthing begin... |
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.well.!!! it's time for me to say goodnight..so goodnight everybody   it's been a blast lol..... ..
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you know what!!.. I think I'm just going to sit in here.. and watch the river drift by... and just keep my words to myself... quietly sitting here thinking.... to myself.. I did not mean any offense.. To you!!.. or anyone....
. but I think this is best... before I say or do anything else.. To. hurt anyone else... if I no longer talk to anyone... .. then they will not .. be perceived as a threat... to whomever.... 
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a beautiful lovely friend .. said perhaps some perspective..
.. nothing like a little altitude !!.to put things in perspective.  ..mmmm
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some of my new neighbors..
my new Zen master.. and yoga instructor... he's helping me with my meditation techniques.... 
 .... in through the nose. out through the mouth....mmmmm..
. I need to achieve . chi...mmm
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Edited by
fleta_n_mach
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Sat 09/13/14 02:39 PM
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it's all psychological..
http://youtu.be/5abamRO41fE |
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... just trying to stay in sync..http://youtu.be/JHXNaYoguNU.....
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Edited by
no1phD
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Sat 09/13/14 07:54 PM
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