The Knowing

I thought I was where I wanted to be, only
To find I was in the wrong place.
Each day
A dying, each one a fading dream.

Life raced by a ��pace. Dogs barked at wolves
As I passed. I howled at the moon,
Till the
Blush of dawn drove me out of my head

Hopes and dreams flickered out touching
The lives of others. I paused,
But did not
Dwell, hardly broke my stride!

I tracked the illusion across a lifetime.
Never learned to live that life,
Never knew
How to love or be loved.

Icy loneliness stopped my chase. I knew
I couldn'��t outrun the thoughts
In my head,
That Insidious certainty suffusing my mind.

The knowing always knew the pursuit would
Fail, and the sadness and anguish
Of that
Knowledge glistened In my eyes.