hi.

me saurabh suman
i was wondering why i should marry just because my parents want me to get married.
can i live a normal life in india without marriage???
what if i don't want to love someone and do not want to be loved by someone..
i find the world an ugly place and don't want to bring a new life on this earth.
i want to be a free bird....
my family is a broken nuclear family....
life has taught me to not get emotionally involved with someone....
should i behave normally, find a job and then revolt..???
please don't say talk to them....

i've done and failed multiple times and so i'm asking you all...

I can only wish you the best in whatever path you choose. When it comes to societal norms and practices it is virtually impossible for those living outside of that bubble to fully comprehend all the dynamics involved. Culture is a peculiar creature. What is evident is your unhappiness. I have some experience with the very issues you have stated. It was a painful and tumultuous episode. Seek out people who know you... People you can trust to give you honest feedback and will keep your confidence. Depending on how deeply this is impacting you professional help may be useful. Good luck!

I agree with victorious that cultural differences will make it hard for some of us on here to completely understand your situation, but honestly, that can also happen within our own cultures so I will give it a try.

I also grew up with elders who had certain expectations of me. I look back now and see some times where I prolly should have listened. But I made my own choices and ultimately I am glad that I did. I think you have to be your own person and learn from the mistakes and successes you have made based on your life choices.

It is your life and no one else's. Perhaps placing some distance between yourself and an overbearing parent, at least for awhile, might help. My kids have always made their own choices....so I do sympathize with you.

Yes act normal get a job and never talk to those people
again. or for a while.
good luck

thanks VictoriousOne, sweetestgirl11 and ridewytepony for helping me out...

i would find a job and then get to a new home and new life...

i don't want to fight or revolt...

i will just cut off from them.....

bye
take care...