I sometimes feel like I am coming apart
I worry and gasp for air and grab hold of something
Again and again I have felt this
The feeling of coming apart while underwater

It is such a strange feeling
Like cotton in my hearing canals
Like Vaseline over optic lenses
Like the even pressure all around me

imploding and exploding at the same time?
Is it possible? nothing is impossible if
Love is indestructible
Love fan folds, unfolds, flows immeasurably

I thought this feeling was bad
The loss of control, the lost of equilibrium
An imbalance, not caused by alcohol
A waking dream-like state of being, thinking of him

I know I am awake
The dishes are not done and my hair is un- brushed
Leftovers, yet to put away, I am wearing a night dress
the sun is going down, but it is not dark yet, this strange feeling

I feel like I am coming apart, and closing like a reverse
Flower's bloom, in slow motion
I motion with the wind and it takes me out
My heart buds sails and skips across oceans

My world so confused, to mistake evil for good
I have lived wrong as if right
Don't draw what you think is there
Draw what is there, what is here, you are here