Why am i living in this life stripped away from everything i hold dear. You can cry an ocean of tears. Drown your yourself in its cesspool. Or you you can take the lesser road traveled. Alone as i am, i am my own king. I'll be reborn again a fierce warrior to be reckoned with. But for now i meditate seeking my own mortal clarity.

To my father i pray
To my father i pray, i hope your up in heaven or somewhere with everlasting peace. Before i judge you, i judge my own self. Im not mad with anger. Im not holding anything in. Not anymore at least. No matter what your thoughts were before you left, life is how it is. I do love myself and i know my life is worth living for. From the entire depths of my young heart, i can and always will be able to forgive you . I live with pain, but don't we all. I do have memories worth keeping. If i did send you this message tell your godyou deserve to live on as a king. I do make mistakes and im trying my best to learn from them. Before i go as well, i do wish to make you proud. Im not a super star or a movie star, but i am a son. When you see my mother some day, tell her these words and more. You had a wife once, she must of thought you were a hell of a guy. Part of me thinks ill never find that kind of thing. I hope you believe different for me. For all the good and bad in me, please forgive.

Even God's envy man. To live forever leaves you unworried. To see your death slowly coming, is like no other compared.
Music inspires me to write. I wrote this listening to Kaskade

Hells Demon

I'll tell you one thing about me you dont know
Iv'e seen the devil's eyes through this blizzard of snow
When you reach hells rage caught in it's burning cage
A masquerade of death smiles and lies in it's false perade
Ive gone to that place
That makes the hair on your body stand up
I cant tell you what lies beneath that blood filled cup
How far down are you willing to go just know you will get cut
So take my hand you naieve child
Into this insidious hell where your raped and defiled
To get to this land where blood lives in the sand
You evolve into the devils hideous eyes and hands
Dare not become what i am
Stay as you are innocent mortal man

I know so many who could relate to your writes, let alone write similar to this..Touching..