When it’s all too much, totally unbearable

& the only reason you’re still alive is, “Suicide is an unforgivable sin”

you live to see yourself die

and every waking moment you get on your knees and pray

“God, please let it be today; The final day of my miserable life; Amen.”

Sadly, for a long time now it has been a prayer you never find an answer to

& deep within yourself your faith is questioned

“will a death-wish be the reason another one of the Almighty joins the fallen?”

and you wish you could just disappear into nothingness, oblivion

like a lone star high in the sky on a dark dark night...